That's what I've been saying! I know I could make infused syrups and shrubs and whatever bullshit, and between my mother and me we have a bunch of kinds of liquor, but I want SOMEONE ELSE to do it!

Feeling hard all ya'll dealing with bullshit. Right now my bullshit feels very internal -- I've been having way more lows than usual, which is understandable, but still very frustrating. My shit is negatively together. It is frustrating.

Fancy cocktails do sound nice.

I did acquire flour, however -- one of my favorite bakeries is open for call in and counter service, and they had flour directly from their mill bagged for purchase. I have no idea what I will use it for any time soon, but I do feel kind of shiny for having it.

The yeast I ordered ages ago, and the bread mixes I ordered because I couldn't get yeast, all came in on the same day. Of course, and I have also lost the early urges I had to bake. I just want to go to a bakery and have everything made for me thank you very much.

I made blackberry-vanilla syrup today for blackberry old fashioneds. [link]

The syrup seemed a bit vanilla heavy, so I upped the blackberries. I doubt I'll regret that. Anyway, that's for my team's zoom happy hour tomorrow. I've been drinking with my coworkers way more since I stopped physically working with them. Probably because I'm a lightweight, booze wise, and now I don't have to drive home.

There are definitely worse things than only drinking at home!

And that sounds delicious.

I tried half of a Trazodone last night around 7, and started feeling really sleepy around 8, which was pretty amazing. (OTOH, I've been sleeping really badly and probably running something of a deficit.)

Definitely not as awake as perhaps would be desired today, though caffeine helped some.

Whee! Science experiments with my own brain!

I am making my own fancy cocktail at the moment and would be happy to make one for you.

Yesterday, I made Negronis for my next door neighbors and left them on the back porch table. Because they had a trip to Italy planned, half of which would have been paid for by her job. And the COVID killed that. Which is pretty tough for young parents who didn't have much hope for international travel until their kid was in middle school.

Anyway, I made Negronis and we talked on the porch (at a distance).

Currently I'm drinking a Ginger Rogers which requires: Gin, Fancy Ginger Ale (on the dry side), fresh mint leaves, lemon juice, lots of fresh mint leaves muddled at the bottom and a tablespoon of sweet ginger syrup.

And I can't say enough for the Bob's Red Mill flour that I got last week. Two amazing loafs of bread, seriously. It's left the King Arthur Bread Flour in the dust.

OTOH, the Bob's was definite overkill for my pizza dough. Using regular all-purpose flour for that would not make a noticeable difference.

I may yet end up as someone with several different containers of flour around.

Oh, Calli, that sounds delish!

Hooray sleep, Theo! And good flour/bread. And all y'all's cocktails.

I'm going to try cooking grits and split peas together in the same pot for tomorrow's breakfast. I think it might be good. With some pepper jack melted on top?