This all could have turned out so differently. It didn't have to be like this.
It really didn't.
No. It did not. I've had to park my anger because it's not productive anger.
In between the tears and the la-la-la flibbertigibbert distractions, I am a vibrating ball of world's-angriest-dog level rage.
We told Matilda, and she cried and cried and now she's talking to one of her best friends and then she's going to call Emmett.
Thanks. I didn't know her especially well, as I'd moved out by the time Pat died so she was never my neighbor, but we were both very close to Pat and Lucy (who were like surrogate grandparents to me, very much so--Melanie and I were two of the few individuals in Pat's will, as most of his estate went to charity) and it's hitting me much harder than it should be.
I'm angry for Melanie, for JZ's family, for all of us. And just so, so, so deeply sad.
Also, it's really nice to see Cass here.
Thanks! I've missed it here. B.org is always home.
This all could have turned out so differently. It didn't have to be like this.
It didn't. It makes me so angry.
It's a very different disease but the way we dealt with Ebola was such a stark contrast.
With this we had time. We should have had people and access to data and a sense that the lives and health of our people (all people, really) matters. But don't want to scare the stock market. And, maybe, maybe we think if we close our eyes, the monster won't be there. With disease, the monster is always there. Waiting. Especially things that we've dealt with so long like variations of corona viruses.
I'm angry.
Make sure you can be taken care of, too, in addition to taking care of everyone else.
THIS THIS THIS.
(DO AS I SAY, NOT AS I DO.)
What everyone else has said. So much love and strength to you, JZ. I'm so sorry.
Oh Trudy, six adults is a whole lotta people in any house that doesn't have wings and an overabundance of bathrooms.
2.5. And the .5 is in the basement with jillifonts, a wonky seat, and a door that nobody wants to close. It DOES have a picture of Kenny Loggins Jesus by the light switch so that livens things up in emergencies.
JZ, you'll say the right thing.