I slept good on Wednesday night, but last night I had more anxiety, and only got a few hours of sleep again. At one point I fell alseep, but quickly woke up after I had a mass shooting nightmare.

I guess I need to vent some more later today in therapy.

Tom, my experience (which is obviously not universal) is that, for the past 2 years, we have all been living with a sustained level of stress and anxiety as our daily background noise. And, for me, that jacks up my baseline anxiety, which means that anything else that sets off my anxiety is already starting from second base (or sometimes third) instead of home plate. And it blows.

I hope that venting in therapy today is helpful for you.

Wow, Steph. You really just nailed it for me.

Tom, I hope it helps too.

That's it in a nutshell, Steph. I hope therapy is cathartic today, Tom.

Laura, that is some serious fuckery.

That sounds awful, Tom, but not, like, an irrational reaction? I hope venting helps.

Yeah, that's my experience too. So far (you know, the past two days), I feel slightly better.

I was going to make my usual complaint that working 5 days in a row is too much, but then I remembered that I called in sick on Monday. I should probably look for a new job. Just saying that "out loud" to make it more real to myself.

Steph has nailed how I'm feeling as well, which is why I had to talk myself down in the shower this morning.

And, gah, the news out of Butte County is pretty bad. I am not a fan of fire season.

When does the rainy season usually start in CA?

I just saw the term "firenado" on CNN, and that is not a thing that should exist.