What's a granny cart? I suppose I could google.

Like a grocery cart? The folding kind.

yep - this [link]

a meara:

I got to meet msbelle f2f! And sweet little Bailey, who was less excited to meet me. "Fine, human, I licked you, now begone and leave me to my car hammock in peace!"

I'm not stressing about the coronavirus because I can't. There's too much else in my head right now; I don't have any panic left over.

I've been at the same place for almost 15 years now (it'll be 15 years on Valentine's Day), and I really think I need to get out. Every time I get comfortable with some BS they pull, I think "surely this will be enough for them," and they go "hold my beer." But the inertia is pretty overwhelming by now. Like you, I feel like it speaks to my level of ambition, but what can I say; I fear change.

Inertia is what kept me at my last job for 20 years, despite the stress. Inertia and a good paycheck can make a person put up with a lot of crap.

I have a third interview next week for a job that I would be really happy to get; if anyone has some of that special Buffista job-ma to spare I'd appreciate it!

In NC we can buy beer and wine in grocery stores (although there are specialty stores for the fancy stuff). But liquor is all sequestered in "ABC" stores.

Same in Virginia. It's a weird law.

Glad to get an update on amyth! Thanks, Parker.

Sorry you didn't get that job, msbelle. Better things await! Hopefully with more reasonable commutes.

meara, dating sucks so much. May you find the right girl soon. One who can communicate better, even.

sj, I hate it that you feel so bad about yourself. You're actually amazing, for real, and I wish you could see it.

Cindy, many good vibes going out to your son. I hope the liver thing resolves soon and he feels better.

Steph, I've been following the saga on FB, but in case I haven't said, WOO HOO for Tim and super successful surgery! May you catch up on your sleep and be able to relax.

I hope Javachik is doing better. I'm worried about her.

Dammit, this "having friends" thing comes with a lot of worry. I'm not good at this. I mean, I'm good at worrying, lots of practice, but I'm not good at expressing it in a way that's supportive. I'm working on that. Buffistas are good examples.

I put my phone in my bag before we left the house so I wouldn't forget it, then got in the car and freaked out because I'd forgotten my phone.

I constantly lose things that I just had in my hand. It's like it disappears, poof, and I have to go hunting for it. Lately I've been forgetting whether I took my medicine while standing at the counter where the meds are. Like literally I JUST did it, or... did I? I finally got a pill organizer thing so I can see whether I've put the pills in my mouth or not. ADHD symptoms get worse with stress, as does everything, and boy have I been stressed the last few months. Thankfully my front door is configured such that I cannot lock myself out, or I'd've done that for sure.

oh y'all it's been a good Saturday.

I'm so happy you're happy, msbelle!

I posted this on FB so those who follow me there have already seen it: I saw my doctor yesterday. I'm doing well, physically anyway. Diabetes is under control. I've lost a little more weight. Doctor was so happy at my A1C score she was almost dancing. It was 7.1 last time, 6.6 this time. I told her, that must be some good medicine because I've been eating like sh*t. She said give yourself some credit! :-) She also gave me some validation, she asked how I was doing on the Ritalin and I said very well, and I said if I needed proof that I have ADHD for real, it's that I take Ritalin to calm down. She laughed and said that's true.

So in total I've lost 62 pounds since last January, and now I'm hovering at 5 pounds above my target weight and can't get there! But it's not really a surprise because, as I said, I've been eating crap the last couple months, it's really more of a surprise that I haven't gained weight back. Also my current target isn't my final goal, I want to lose about 35 more pounds and then I think I'll be happy with myself. I'm starting to be able to (continued...)

( continues...) see "me" in the mirror again. I just need to gear up and do the low-carb thing again for a while. But it's hard, not eating carbs, and I think I'll wait until I can get a job and my life settles down a bit before I wrestle the next bear.

I just need to gear up and do the low-carb thing again for a while. But it's hard, not eating carbs,

Happy to share any recipes and tricks if that would help!

I've gotten to the point where I never feel deprived.

Good to see the update, Zen. Sending the job~ma along with congrats for your health goals being met.

That's a major loss, Zen! Feel good about that and your good work with the A1C!

So far this weekend, I've gone to the grocery store, fed the dogs at all feeding times, put away groceries of course, done a load of dishes, taken out the trash, made a run to the recycling center, taken my daughter to get glasses, gone to the pharmacy, done a load of laundry, put away three loads of laundry, paid some bills, and am currently cleaning the basement. I still need to get rid of more recyclables, do more dishes, do more laundry, and, as always, take care of dinner. Despite feeling busy, I'm just not getting enough done though. My wife chewed me out about sleeping in til 9:00am yesterday and and commented how now little I do around the house. I think I'm just really bad at getting stuff done. We also have a deadline coming up at work and it feels like it's going to be largely up to me to put the project on my back and get it to the finish line. At Motorola and Lowe's I felt like there were better, more accomplished, software engineers working with me. Where I am now, it's not like the people I work with aren't smart or good at what they do, but I feel like I've played in a bigger league for awhile.

It's all kinda making me stressed out and tired. My wife is also getting on me about wanting to exercise more (she wants me to do it with her because she feels she really needs to). I know I should do that and eat less carbs too (see sort of on-topic), but that sort of conflicts with wanting to do personal projects (gotta keep my tech skills sharp) and not really giving a shit about staying alive.

Sorry for the venting, back to the basement.