I don't usually do podcasts because if I have time to listen to anything it's usually a book, but I'll check it out. We actually met with the social worker connected to ltc's pediatrician. Some of her advice has helped, and some have made things worse.

The social worker seems good, if you click. I clicked with this most recent therapist, but not other therapists over the years, so their advice didn't work. The thing about random internet strangers is I don't feel guilty for thinking their advice is bad.

I only have a kid perspective, but I never wanted to do anything my mom wanted me to do! Ever. From a very young age. I was terrible to her, and really good for all the outside people. But that meant I felt safe being my terrible self in front of my mom, which Iam sure was unpleasant for her. But I think it meant I loved her more, not less, than the people I was well behaved around.

The social worker seems good, if you click. I clicked with this most recent therapist, but not other therapists over the years, so their advice didn't work. The thing about random internet strangers is I don't feel guilty for thinking their advice is bad.

I only have a kid perspective, but I never wanted to do anything my mom wanted me to do! Ever. From a very young age. I was terrible to her, and really good for all the outside people. But that meant I felt safe being my terrible self in front of my mom, which Iam sure was unpleasant for her. But I think it meant I loved her more, not less, than the people I was well behaved around.

Sophia, logically I know that is the case here too. She is a stubborn as TCG and me combined, but emotionally it is exhausting to get screamed at all the time.

sj, we are going through a big screaming phase with Jane too. Screaming, hitting, and NO to everything. It is so exhausting.

Also, non-specific~ma to amyparker's brother! I hope everything's OK.

First of all, nonspecific-ma sent to Parker's brother.

Second, I am endlessly amused how often I post about something that hasn't happened and I'm worried about it, and then the same day the issue is resolved. Which is to say: the freelance manager is working on the contracts tonight and emailed me just a little bit ago to make sure I wanted to renew my contract for 2020. So. Big sigh of relief!

Whew, Tep!

Bro~ma amyparker

That's awesome Teppy!

Yeah, I don't remember the last time I slept for...15 hours?! So much for getting anything done today.

Also I am glad I'm not a parent right now, I guess? Because I wouldn't have the faintest idea what to do with a screaming hitting child. Or at least, no idea of what's actually good/helpful/appropriate!!

Teppy, that is such a relief.

Thanks, folks - Jim and I have a running joke with a friend that our families of origin have spent the last few years passing around a trophy for "Very Poor Behavior". I'm sure it's Sara's turn . . . .

(I am joking because I just finished crying. My brother is dealing with something terrible, and making very bad decisions in light of it - but it's the reactions of the rest of my immediate family that has me thinking "Yeah, we're going on a break". Put it this way: Connie's death is not the most awful thing I have been working through, the last month or so.)