It has been two people, but this one was given a choice to leave on her own terms, and will be gone by the end of the month. Thank god. I despair that we will find someone for what we are paying, but we have a good internal candidate for half the position and the other half we are requesting a second admissions counselor type person.

Evidently Mercury is seriously retrograde just now, but perhaps it's not just me that is experiencing it.

Today I was supposed to pick up a resident (seriously compromised with Alzheimer's) with her escort: showed up on time, waited about 25 minutes, finally went into the office building to see if I could figure out which office (dentist, thank goodness the ONLY dentist in a big building), and found that the escort had just assumed I'd come in to find them. Note: I've never had to do that before.

Note: the escort had her hands full: on the way out, the resident announced she had to visit the bathroom, which added at least ANOTHER 10 minutes before we set out.

(Halfway through the drive, the nice resident asked me where we were going. Short term memory, not so much. At least she didn't have to pee, so there's that.)

Most of the residents aren't mentally compromised like this. I don't think I could work long in a memory care facility before I got snappish and stressed.

Note to self: in the future where there's an escort person, get their direct cellphone number. A quick text five minutes after I arrived would have moved stuff along sooner. (Resident probably still would have needed the bathroom break. Ah well.)

Things have gone from bad to worse. I'm a waste of a human being.

Gud I know 2 others already provided the link, but here is one to Better Help with 10% off -

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Please go to the link and get someone to talk to.

I am very tempted to call local authorities and have them do a wellness check on your home.

I'm a waste of a human being.

Anyone who tells you this, including you, is wrong. Nothing is further from the truth. Please, Gud. We are very serious when we say you need help. We care. Please give yourself the loving care you need and deserve.

Gud, I am so worried about you. You are not a waste.

I'm with msbelle. You truly have to do something.

I hope you talk to someone, Gud. You don't deserve this, and honestly you're kind of scaring me at this point.

Please Gud please call someone to get help.

You are not a waste AT ALL. You are being abused and you need to get help for your mental health and to stay alive.

You are not a waste if your wife is telling you that she is abusing you and you need to leave.