So much to take in, amyth. I think you lucked into the right hands for this treatment. I suppose the chemo is timed so that you can sleep through the worst of it and have a couple good hours in the day, depending on how your body tolerates it.

T. is staying until Dec. 4th. He's basically putting his life on hold for me, which is too much for my heart to hold.

Remember when loved ones do for you to reverse it in your mind. You know how much you would do for them. It's good to let people show their love and concern.

because I expect I will lose it in epic fashion anytime now

Maybe. Maybe not. Any method of dealing is okay. I know some people that have more emotional responses, and some that are more objective and systematic in response. A couple of my friends going through massive health issues responded by researching, learning, and mostly logical reactions, with bouts of sobbing in the shower of course.

My sister's lung cancer (20 years ago) involved removal of most of one lung and a bunch of radiation. She read somewhere that visualizing the radiation as ice being applied to her skin helped with the burns. She imagined she was lying on a sheet of ice when they did the procedures and the medical staff often commented that they were amazed she never had side affect burns.

tl;dr: Attitude is huge, and yours is great. Know that any way you respond is okay and people who say they want to help mean it.

Holy shit, amyth. We are all pulling for you!

Amyth, this is so much. You sound so like you are doing good right now, but please do reach out.

Weird question- will you need a chemo cap? I have made them before and can whip up a nice soft one for you and mail it off if you need. What are your favorite colors. If you don't need it, it can just be a cute hat-

What Jesse said!

That's wonderful T can spend that time there.

And thank god for the internet! Can you imagine if you had to call everyone you wanted to talk to???

Theo, I think I just lucked out on the timing of my chemo, because that was how long it took the hospital pharmacist to approve it and mix it up from when the oncology team put in the order. But the timing has worked out well!

Laura, that story about your sister is amazing! And thanks for all of your wise and kind words.

Sophia, I would love a chemo cap, thank you! They said to expect hair loss soon, so I need to think about options. My favorite colors are purple and other jewel tones.

Jesse, INORITE?? I barely even use my phone as a phone! I'm reserving phone calls mostly for the over-70 crowd who want to stay in touch. And it's a lot! Hooray, Internet!

In minor news, I'm off work today for Veteran's day, but figured the guys were coming to finish some work they are doing in my house, and thank goodness I got up and showered, etc., because they were here by 8:30!

And thank god for the internet! Can you imagine if you had to call everyone you wanted to talk to???

~~full body shudder~~

amyth, you are amazing. Whatever you need we are here for you.

amyth, thanks for keeping us up to date with what is happening. Those nurses know amazing when they see it.