What Steph Said!!!

Seriously!

I just so happy to be right now sitting at a clean table on a clean chair eating dinner and having a glass of wine. Even though I am surrounded by trash bags.

I hope therapy works out. I think I am more prepared for it than the last time because I know what I want to get out of it. WhenI tried in my twenties I was trying to explain my issues with paying bills and taking out garbage and cleaning, and my therapist just did not understand. She was just like-make a list, have a calendar, have a folder for bills. And I was trying to explain wherein I couldn't. And I just gave up.

I think I might struggle to explain that it isn't so much the acquisition of things that is the problem, but the inability to maintain routines or put things away. I mean, I intend to only have a few things, but I don't think that is really the big problem.

I am wondering if the part about not being seen has to do with/is related to agoraphobia, which I think my grandma had (she rarely left the house until the time she ran away and hid in the woods thinking my mom was trying to kill her). And by rarely, I mean I remember all of them. My mental health is the closest to my grandmas (major depression, anxiety, hypochondria,). My grandpa and my mom are a little more the same (paranoid, depressed) although apparently my grandpa was much worse since I don't think my mom hears voices!

I hope therapy works out. I think I am more prepared for it than the last time because I know what I want to get out of it.

I think that, plus the fact that you're willing to do the work (the mental/emotional labor) is a really strong starting point.

In random mental health news, a local elected official knocked on my door this weekend, and my mother told him she would like to get more information from him (like an email newsletter or something) and he said it was hard for him because he has ADHD and executive function issues. Buddy, I feel that, but maybe don't share it everywhere? And/or get a volunteer to do it??

That's weird, right?

Yeah, I would hope someone taking an elected position in civil service would have measures in place to compensate for ADHD and such, in the interest of actually doing the job they signed on for.

I mean, I think those might be my issues, but maybe have a card you can hand out with a sign up to get more information, and then have a volunteer do it?

Has anyone else done the Clifton Strengths Finder? I am finding it helpful right now because my biggest strength is "Acquisition": People exceptionally talented in the Input theme have a need to collect and archive. They may accumulate information, ideas, artifacts or even relationships.

I am facing the problem with the acquisition strength right now

I am trying to use my number four- Strategic People exceptionally talented in the Strategic theme create alternative ways to proceed. Faced with any given scenario, they can quickly spot the relevant patterns and issues.

Anyway, I think this dude needs to find someone who complements his strengths.

And honestly, I bet the full-time job (our City Council is part-time) and small children would have been a more compelling excuse to give my mother.

Still, figure out how to do your job, though.

Also, Jesse, please thank anyone who donated to you. Seriously, just not having to worry so much about money has calmed me down from rabid chihuahua to concerned pug.

You are so welcome! It is literally the least we can do.