And Matthew's brother asked what we were doing tomorrow and if we would be at church and I ended up trying to explain why I don't want to go to church. It was difficult because I know his brother was shaken up and is worrying about everyone but it just is all hard.
askye, this is from someone who still (sometimes*) goes to church. If I had visitors, I'd invite them, because I wouldn't want to just abandon them. I also in no way would expect them to come along with us. My daughter doesn't go to church with us, and she lives here (well, when she's not at school). I'm sorry it was difficult, but I just want to chime in as a churchy person and say I don't think churchy people should feel bad when their non-churchy friends don't want to go (for whatever reason, even if it's, "I'd rather sleep"). I'm sorry the day was stressful. Damn ducks.
meara and sj, the game was just ridiculous. I was still kind of wired (had more caffeine than usual, later than usual, yesterday), so I was fine until about the 14th inning, then I was actively hoping someone would just lose, even if it was the Sox.
sj, you must have been tired today. TCG made the smart call. My dog kept looking at us, trying to figure out why the heck we were still up.
*I need to find a new church. Ours has taken a turn I don't like. I just don't know where I want to or should go.
I'll probably delete this later, but to the Somervillains, the church that burnt down this week was about a block from my church, but not like a big, city block, a little small town New England block. You can see it clearly from mine. The whole town is just devastated.
I took a nap after brunch. So, I'm doing okay. I wouldn't have stayed up in TCG wasn't going to be home all day to wrangle ltc.
I was watching TV with #3 this afternoon and kept falling asleep. Now I'm likely to be up half the night.
I'll get the hang of this having a body thing someday. Maybe.
sj, how old is ltc now?
Cindy, she turned 3 in August.
sj, I asked, because my youngest was four, when the Sox won in 2004. We let all the kids stay up, but he fell asleep in the chair. We let him stay there and then woke him up when they won.
We were talking about it last night. He already cared about baseball then, because his big brother played Little League. I remember dh and I being so exhausted after the playoffs and series that year, because it was this run of late nights, and then early mornings with little kids.
I would swear up and down that I've never had chicken pox, so I would have never even considered Shingles. I was seriously worried that I had bed bugs rather than flea bites because the "bites" were so closely clustered. Also, it's on both boobs, so it's crossed the centre line, which is not normal with shingles. But I don't have a huge rash, so I'm hopeful I will kick this easily.
Sue, I must not have reloaded the page before you posted the above. Are you sure it's not Chicken Pox, then? Do you have a fever?
I got Chicken Pox at 19, and they were more painful than itchy (I guess because I wasn't a little kid). They were little blisters at first. From my recollection of my mother's Shingles, they were like a bigger version.
My mother's might have crossed the center line too (I think they usually stay to the right). Someone I know had Shingles that did. I'll try to remember to ask her tomorrow.
ltc doesn't know much about sports yet, and unfortunately with all of the games starting at 8, she hasn't seen any of the games. She's out by 7:30 at the latest most nights and especially tonight because she was a crank monster today.
Cindy thanks for the insight. I don't think that his brother was trying to pressure me so much as reassure me that his church isn't like the others and I would like it.
I don't think he was regularly attending church until after their father died suddenly in spring of 2017. And then to have someone have a seizure in front of him just...I know inviting me was a way of trying to take care of people he cares about.
It was just bad timing and he didnt know I have Issues about this.
Matthew's brother and sister are conservative and I don't know how they feel about certain things so I was trying to avoid saying I didn't want to try to attend a church that would be anti gay and or possibly less accepting than I expect a church should be.
Sue I am shaking pom-poms for your antivirals.
As a disease, anxiety needs to go fuck itself with a rusty chainsaw. I can't hold Harvey without screaming and crying. (Imagine trying to hold Sammie the unholdable to clean crap out of her fur after she came out of the litterbox with chunks stuck on while having an anxiety attack) I signed up to do stuff with that Red2Blue thing linked here, but I can,t figure out how to do anything. So I'm not getting anything useful done. The way my anxiety has been out of control, GOTV efforts that involve dealing with people in anything remotely like real time would be... not of the good. I tried to sign up to do postcards with someplace last week and got no response. I'm so sorry. I can't.
At this point, if I didn't have a consult with an actual psychiatrist on Monday morning, I would probably be willing to take myself off to the hospital.
WS - be kind with yourself. You do not need to be doing more if it is not where you are right now. Try to get on a good sleep schedule, drink lots of water, eat some good meals, and do the work that is required of you and nothing more. That is enough. You are enough. You are doing enough.
