I think you have a really good chance of landing somewhere you are happier, for sure. You do have mad skillz!
'Shindig'
Natter 76: Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Foaminess
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Zen I hope this leads to something really good for you.
I fucked up again, this time with the dinner I made badly. I hate being a shit person. I hate being me.
I love to cook, and try new recipes. Sometimes they are spectacular fails. We all laugh about it and the family gets to tease me for a while. Although my dinners may sometimes fail, I don't consider it even remotely a reflection on me as a person, and neither does my family. A bad meal does not make a bad person. Period.
YOU ARE NOT A SHIT PERSON!
YOU ARE NOT!
Gud, we've never met but you have been part of the Buffistas a long time and that means you've been a part of my life for a long time and I care about you. And I worry about you.
I worry that your wife's abuse will drive you to hurt yourself or attempt suicide. It would be way overstepping all kinds of boundaries but if I could I would be trying to meet you in person and get you to a therapist of some kind. Which would be crossing lines.
PLEASE PLEASE call the number that Fred Pete posted. Please.
worry that your wife's abuse will drive you to hurt yourself or attempt suicide.
Me too.
I fucked up again, this time with the dinner I made badly.
Big fucking deal. Everybody's fucked up dinner.
For fuck's sake, Gud, get your kids out of the house and divorce your abusive wife.
I hate being a shit person. I hate being me.
You ARE NOT A SHIT PERSON! You are an excellent human being in a very bad situation.
You are not a shit person, Gud. I'm sorry that being you is not feeling good right now. That's very hard.
Again, Gud. 800-273-8255. Or talk to me -- my profile address is good, although I usually only check it in the evening -- either leave me a phone number or ask for mine.
I know it's hard to feel it's true in the grip of depression, but you are a *wonderful* person, Gud. You care very much about your family and work tirelessly to make them happy. You are a smart, and funny, and kind, and generous member of this community that is widely liked. Please, bear in mind that there are a lot of brilliant people around these parts who have a very high opinion of you, and they're pretty good judges of character. And there are a few grouchy ones like me who are not slow to call out terrible people, of whom you are definitely NOT an example.