I haven't posted in Goodbye and Good Riddance in years, because nothing changed- I had the same job, the same minor annoyances, the same vaguely OK happiness, but nothing to womderful and nothing too bad.
This year has been a series of bad things-
1. In April I was diagnosed with diabetes
2. This made my doctor make me see all the doctors
3. My insurance is the high deductible kind
4. My physical became a diagnostic visit, so I had to pay for it
5. My mammogram became a diagnostic visit, and I had to have a biopsy and pay for it
6. Apparently an eye exam is $400
While this was happening, at work they hired an "assistant administrator" to supervise the "administrative assistants" who previously reported to the professors who ran the program we worked for. It was pretty stressful. I love my boss and hence love my job.
7. The day after this new boss started, my mother lost her vision and my uncle was in the ED.
8. The whole thing made me crazy because no one would let me help, and I am healthcare adjacent
9. I also completely changed my eating, lost 70 pounds, and have non-diabetic numbers. But I HATE it, and I sort of hate talking about it because I would never recommend this type of eating to someone who was not diabetic (High Fat, very low carb (around 30 - 40 per day). But everyone at work wants to talk about it because it is very visible.
10. My mother did get her sight back- they messed up her eye injection.
11. My uncle died. Also I was listed in the obit as his special niece, and that made my theatre boss ask if he was really my father. Which was weird and made me hate him more than I already did.
12. I somehow lost all taste for food. I was treated for acid reflux and it seems better, but I can't look at an egg without wanting to vomit because I ate too many eggs earlier in the year.
13. I have had some sort of runny nose/sinus thing since October
14. I think I might have broken a piece of one of my molars, but it doesn't hurt anymore and I wanted to wait until there was more money in my HSA
15. I am still paying off the $1,500 deductible for my insurance, and I accidentally paid too much, so the weekend of Christmas until the 30th, I only had $20 and it was difficult. I could have paid it way earlier, but I am horrible and didn't even want to look at the bills because I was in so much denial.
16. Also, I think my cat is 22 and going to die soon. Or the people I got her from didn't tell me her correct age.
17. My mother is super more depressed than usual and so hard to talk to when I am also depressed, but I kind of think she is going to die soon too, so I try to call her every other day.
As the year comes to a close, I have barely spoken to this new assistant administrator, and I don't understand what his job is, but he seems nice. I haven't tried hard to connect because I might be getting a promotion and wouldn't report to him any more. But apparently no matter how big of a promotion (the original idea was 5 grades), apparently the university can only give at most a 10% raise (which for me is $4,000), but I would have to quit the theatre (where I make $12,000) to go back to school and get a master's in online education. So I am torn.
Hmm. That was actually cathartic. I know I am a lucky