Happy 50th - watch out colon.

I have yet to get mine. The problem is that I need to have someone with me, and my wingman is gone, and the people I would ask don't have the lenient I Need To Take A Day Off policies I have.

Yikes, Zen!!! That's great your sister can join you. Swift healing!

I had my first 'scopy early this year. In fact, she ordered what the nurses referred to as a "spinner", which made me laugh, in spite of the circumstances. They admitted me for the afternoon and had an anesthetist, and I went to sleep and woke up and as far as I was concerned it was a *lovely* nap. No difficulties at all recovering. But the two weeks before were complicated by a gluten-rich diet. I don't eat that many carbs, like, ever. Oy. And the 36 hours before the procedure are best forgotten.

Yay for good Suzi health news.

And much ~ma for Daniel's mom.

I have no idea what I'm going to do when it comes time for a colonoscopy. It seems too much like a catheter/cystsocopy thing (I know they sedate you for the colonoscopy but Mom has become aware during 2 of hers) and also I am not sure I can drink that stuff you are supposed to . Well I'm pretty sure I can make myself drink it not sure I can keep it down.

I've been wearing my nightguard regularly and it helps! But it makes me more aware of my front tooth, the root is shorter than the other roots and I don't know if it's more exposed or something but it's more sensitive. The dentist keeps telling me my gums are okay but they don't feel ok. But there's not much I can do at this point except brush and floss. I just have to wear the nightguard until the other mouth sensory issues are too much, then stop wearing it until the mouth sensory issues are gone and then repeat

So this whole adventure I've been on my period and! they're giving me bloodthinners. There is no dignity in a hospital.

Ooo! Are there fancy Icelandic feminine hygiene products?

And how are you feeling? When does your sister get there?

Sorry, Zen. In those situations, I try to comfort myself with the knowledge that the doctors or nurses have always seen worse.

There's also no dignity involved with a steroid shot aimed right around your tailbone.

When I delivered Brendon I was annoyed with the gown and took it off and stayed naked. My mom just shrugged and said there was no dignity in a hospital and I might as well get comfy.

Really glad that your sister is able to come and help you out, Zen. Who knew you were going to create so many memories this vacation? I hope the trip home is well medicated so you are able to be comfortable.

Oh, Poor Zen! That's totally adding insult to injury! Well, at least you know you won't have to mess with it when you're hobbling at home without nurses to help?

Really glad that your sister is able to come and help you out, Zen. Who knew you were going to create so many memories this vacation? I hope the trip home is well medicated so you are able to be comfortable.

Also, everything that Laura said.

I went into some kind of avoidance spiral and have done nothing for the library job. I'm ashamed of that but I'm finally doing some work.

I did have a lot of anxiety and I have made emotional progress and I'm trying not to be too hard on myself but I feel like I'm letting not just myself down but other people too.

Spent most of yesterday feeling like a sullen teenager. I feel like I should apologize. Anyway the big break through in my life is I believe that how people see me - you guys , my parents, Will, etc --is true. I may not see certain things myself, but it doesn't mean it's not there it means I can't let myself see it yet.