I've started putting weight back on, which, yay! my body is not panic burning and apparently no big tumors consuming me from the inside - but, boo! now I have to start actually paying attention to and limiting what I eat, no fun! But I think my health is already a tricky enough balance just now that adding a weight loss drug is probably contraindicated for a good while to come. So I catch myself taking note of the drugs you guys recommend and have to remind myself, "maybe not right now, k?"

Yeah, Epic, smart thinking!

I hadn't heard of that drug, but it's got bupropion (Wellbutrin) in it, and I'm already maxed out on that.

Gotcha! Yeah I’d never been on it before (or the other main ingredient) and was nervous about them tbh. But it’s done the trick for me. (Also I hate hate hate how true it is that drinking less leads to better sleep, etc. damn it.)

(Also I hate hate hate how true it is that drinking less leads to better sleep, etc. damn it.)

This seriously pisses me off too. I dearly enjoy my wine, which has been my traditional signal to myself that my responsibilities of the day are complete and I can unwind now. However, my stupid bossy watch gives me a sleep score every morning and the difference between wine in the evening, and denial of wine is obvious. Yes, my family tells me I should just do pot instead, but wine is so tasty!

Right??? So annoying. On the plus side, since moving to the east coast, my lifetime dislike of seltzer water has done a 180 since I discovered Polar! So I drink a lot of that instead of wine. Now, I do need to start throwing parties because I’ve got 16 cases of great wine in my basement (all of my California winery shipments).

I keep saying every summer that I need to visit javachik, and now there is yet another reason! Also, yes Polar is yummy. Love me some fizzy water.

Laura, it probably goes without saying, but you and B are ALWAYS welcome. If you want to stop at my place on your way to Kristin’s dad’s memorial, let me know!

Yes, we do plan on being there for Kristin and Drew. We'll make a plan.

Dana I too am maxed out on Wellbutrin already (and it already made drinking not feel good years ago).

Today would have been my mom’s birthday. Her sister asked to have a zoom, so I zoomed with my aunt, siblings, and cousin—I don’t think I’d spoken to him in…15 years? He’s married now (they had a very small wedding). Then to honor my mother, I went thrift shopping. (Sadly she did not seem to be with me or have any pull, as I only bought two things).

Also the weird prickly sunburn-esque feeling on my side has not gone away. It’s not really worse (though maybe a bit more area?) and still doesn’t LOOK any different but I’m heavily side-eyeing. wtf body. Now also my lip and just under my lip has the same tingling feeling….but I’m hoping that’s from the overly spicy ramen I tried to eat for dinner (I managed about five bites and had to give up!)