I love Captain Awkward.

Tep, don't blame you...I go through a lot of emotions with my brother and his Career Crisis, 3.1, and he won't die of that(although that's not the way he tells it...)

This sounds so hard, Steph, but I think you are handling it correctly, and it is great for you to vent here. I know firsthand how much venting and talking things out here helps. I wish there was something tangible we could do for you, but I don't know that there is really anything except sending support.

I think it is great that you are owning your anger. I think a lot of women in our age group are full of rage at always being the person who fixes things. There are several people on this thread. And I think we have to get it out somewhere or we are all going to explode into a mass of peri-menopausal women who start a revolution OR implode.

I am so sorry, Steph.

And, uh, in other news, which feel like most appropriate to share in Bitches. I am now on an unofficial hunt behalf of the National Library after published works of pornography and erotic fiction in Hebrew. It appears that the catalog is in serious lack of most of these titles, and I know people who know people, so I volunteered to spread the word.

(It, umm, appears that the relevant department is having difficulties googling certain terms that will not be blocked by the institution's web-nanny).

Steph, your therapist is right, you can be totally understanding and totally pissed off at the same time, and you do deserve to be taken care of and not to have to do all the caretaking, and boy this all sucks. I hope your brother gets better soon.

JZ, that's my nightmare work scenario and fwiw I sympathize; I'd have had a breakdown over that bullshirt.

Toddson, good luck to you finding a new place that suits your needs. What a pain it is, having to move.

We're getting too old for this sh!t. It's time to retire to Buffista Island and not have to deal with anyone's craziness but our own.

I'm ready, Zen.

Sending ~ma and holding y'all in my heart.

I too, am ready for Buffistas Island.

I am so tired of my feet . The new thing is waves of burning pain in one spot on my right foot. I think the way I've beentrying to deal with the plantar fasciitis pain has put more pressure on my right foot (my shorter leg) along the ball of the foot.

The pain just started as I was trying to go to sleep. I know I need to lose weight and find a job where I'm not on my feet all day but both of those seem impossible any time soon.

I've been avoiding seeing a doctor because it's so close to the new year but I think I'm going to tell my parents for Christmas I want help paying for my out of pocket medical expenses in the new year.

I don't know how to be more disciplined with myself.

I keep thinking of all the things that I need to do or want to do to improve my life and I just get overwhelmed. If anyone is following Cinder the Cat on FB or Instagram one of the vet people made a oos4 that said "Cinder says side feet are better than no feet". The context was Cinder on the treadmill with just 2 side pas kind of barely moving them. So it is sort of doing a little something is better than nothing. So I keep repeating this hoping I'll start believing it or putting fit into use for things like exercise.

The postive thing I've done is severely cut back on my soda and caffeine intake. The increase in Vyvanse has decreased my cravings for caffeinated drinks but I haven't been able to quit and some days I have too much. But side feet are better than no feet and I have gone whole days without any caffeinated drinks or only a watered down tea.

Hope your brother is continuing to improve, Teppy.

I had stressy dreams all night that I was missing a big flight, and then that I was at the wrong airport, and so on. Whyyyy, body? Do not want.