cat ~ma, Zen.

I had a mini-meltdown at work. Let my anger show. We have been taken over by an enormous company based in India. They decided we all needed new TCS (them) computers and phone. They are rolling them out through the buildings. They are flawed as all get out and we are all getting very sick of the "if you've forgotten your global ID, you can interrupt one of your coworkers to log into this global website to reset your id". First of all, they should have stations on ever floor where we can go and reset this bullshit ID. but no! it's just 3-4 guys who have control over this process, and they are as frustrated and tired of the mess as we lowly worker bees are. American and Indian alike, this rollout of new equipment, new procedures, new worktypes is driving them as crazy as it is us. Today, for the 2nd time in a week (and this actually makes me one of the lucky ones) my "global id" decided to lock me out of my computer for almost an hour. I have also been locked out of the website where we record our worked hours to get paid, for a week. I lost it when the guy I called for help started giving me the same old spiel about log in from someone else's machine to reset. And actutally had to shout over him that i've heard that enough times, now I have another question, so shut up and listen!" That got through to him, but everyone around me got really quiet.

So, they fixed one problem but I still have the other. but, the mildest mannered guy on the team came by as I was trying in vain to get access to my time card and said, "you sounded really frustrated with whoever you were on the phone with. I hope it's ok now". He tends to understate things a lot. ok there may be more to this story tomorrow, but the wine is finally hitting me, so I will stop ranting. thank you for listening to my work woes. I know they are small compared to what others are enduring. I just really hate to show how bad my temper is in front of people.

The doctor who I've been seeing for my EDS, who I absolutely love and is one of the best doctors I've ever seen, and she actually listens to me, suddenly sent out an email to all of her patients saying that she's closing her practice, effective immediately. She said that it's because of medical issues that she's having. So now all of her patients are scrambling to figure out what to do. She sent out a list of other doctors that she recommends, and I really hate the whole process of trying to find a doctor that I like. For some specialties (like my hand surgeon), I'm OK with "This doctor is kind of a jerk, but they're good at what they do." But for this, I really need a doctor that I can trust to trust me. And there are a lot of doctors within pain-related specialties who really don't listen to their patients about pain.

So, tomorrow afternoon, calling around to some of the doctors on her list, I guess.

quester, that sounds so frustrating. I'm sorry.

Hil, I hope you can find a good doctor that you can trust. I know how much this can change one's life, especially in chronic situations (I will always be grateful to a doctor that I randomly went to and diagnosed me with something that's been affecting me for over a decade. I was sure that I'm just being weird and imagining this and it's psychosomatic. A surgery and eight weeks of physical therapy solved what I had almost completely).

quester and Hil, those both sound like extremely frustrating circumstances. Good luck to you both finding solutions.

Thank you all for the cat ~ma. Leo does have feline leukemia virus, which isn't curable, and is extremely contagious even when non-symptomatic, so it's likely my other two cats also have it now. (They were all vaccinated against it when I first got them, but I didn't give them annual booster shots because I didn't fucking know I was supposed to.) So Leo is home, acting a little perkier after a blood transfusion, and we're working on getting his meds down his gullet every day, and we're just going to be happy and live as long as we live. And I'm going to try to stop crying. I almost fell apart in a PetSmart today buying his favorite food to get him to eat. I can't keep doing this; I've got to find a new job, ffs.

quester, I've been through something similar, and I understand your frustration. I was once quite rude to the "support" guy for refusing to answer a straightforward question. In front of my boss and my boss's boss. Not my finest moment, but it made the point.

Hil, I'm sorry you're losing your wonderful doctor. I hope you quickly find someone else who listens to you.

the guy i yelled at on the phone, I ran into him randomly on the way to lunch and he suddenly recognized me and said "hello". I don't think he does that very often. I don't know if I made an impression or just scared him.

Things were better today for awhile but just as I was closing out, I screwed up the password to Ultimatix, our overlord computer site. I ll deal with it monday.

and because it deserves a separate post, more kitty~ma for you, Zen

Oh Zenkitty. My heart hurts for you, Leo and your other kitties.

{{Zen and kitties}}

Zen, all the hugs to you and your kitties.

It must be the week of medical BS. I've been waiting to start meeting with a new psychologist for almost two months - the first appointment was scheduled for this coming Monday. I got a call on Friday saying that the appointment was cancelled, and the doctor would call to reschedule. No call from the doc yet, and I'm super-annoyed.