Went to a party last night. I didn't know anyone except the host, I ended up not talking to anyone, and I had to leave quickly because of anxiety.
I failed at being social. Again.
Angel: Is that what you think you are--a hero? Spike: Saved the world didn't I? Angel: Once. Talk to me after you've done it a couple more times.
'Destiny'
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Tom Scola - Aug 31, 2019 4:17:08 am PDT #6229 of 8214
Remember that the frontier of the Rebellion is everywhere. And even the smallest act of insurrection pushes our lines forward.
Laura - Aug 31, 2019 4:20:13 am PDT #6230 of 8214
Our wings are not tired.
You went! I call that a win. I'm sorry you were disappointed.
Shir - Aug 31, 2019 8:06:07 am PDT #6231 of 8214
"And that's why God Almighty gave us fire insurance and the public defender".
I'm with Laura. It is a win.
For me, the past two years have been an exercise in trying to figure out how to handle parties of very beloved friends who have really terrible people in them (who hurt me/other people I consider as friends in the past). Said beloved friends don't know about these incidents because I'd hate to bring other people's past to the present of people's relationships and choices. It made me miss parties and events more than once, and it's starting to bug me.
javachik - Aug 31, 2019 9:52:19 am PDT #6232 of 8214
Our wings are not tired.
Tom, as someone who entertains a lot, and makes it a priority to connect people, I'd say that's actually a host fail, not a you fail. I wish you lived closer so that you come over for the low-key things I host. I am glad you went, and I'm sorry it ended up with you not feeling good about it.
-t - Aug 31, 2019 10:11:41 am PDT #6233 of 8214
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
I'm with Laura, Tom. You went, that's a win! And recognizing that leaving would be better for than staying is also a win. Good for you!
Steph L. - Aug 31, 2019 10:16:01 am PDT #6234 of 8214
I look more rad than Lutheranism
Tom, I wouldn't even go to a party where the only person I knew was the host. No way. So the fact that you went is actually a win.
Tom Scola - Aug 31, 2019 10:17:07 am PDT #6235 of 8214
Remember that the frontier of the Rebellion is everywhere. And even the smallest act of insurrection pushes our lines forward.
It wasn't planned that way; I just wasn't sure who was going to show up.
Steph L. - Aug 31, 2019 10:19:35 am PDT #6236 of 8214
I look more rad than Lutheranism
Ah. Well, in your shoes, if I went to a party where I thought there would be more people who I knew, and they weren't there, I would have left, too. I don't think that's a failure of anything.
Dana - Aug 31, 2019 10:24:36 am PDT #6237 of 8214
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.
If I didn't know who was going to show up, I probably wouldn't have gone.
Dana - Aug 31, 2019 10:26:02 am PDT #6238 of 8214
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.
And I have literally just made a connection between my worsening anxiety over the last several years and my increasing tendency at DragonCon to just give up trying to get into panels, rather than make an effort. Because as I've discovered/remembered over the past couple of years, making a small effort works most of the time.
Ugh, brains. Why.