Body image demons are going into overdrive. (I know what triggered it -- something posted on Facebook that reminded me of high school.) Now I'm doing some sit-ups, to try to make my body less disgusting.

Sorry you are getting hit with body image demons.

I learned some new things tonight about my medical history. I've finally asked about details about my surgery. Dad mentioned the worst part for him was seeing all the tubes in my stomach post surgery.

This is the first time I've heard of those. They weren't in my stomach exactly. Mom disagreed with the number and that they were all together. There were drainage tubes for the kidneys and incidion and catheter. Dad thinks there were 5 and that thy were in for a week. Mom said I was only in the hospital a few days.

I was also able to navigate around Dad's hang up about weight. He said I got chunky because they had me drink lots of cranberry juice and he worried about my weight.

Body Image Demons, I mock you! You are pathetic and sad. I dare you to come at me - I will gnash your bones in my teeth and drink your blood in a cocktail of chocolate sauce.

Ask, When I had my splenectomy, I also had drainage tubes. It was not uncomfortable, but it was just...weird and disconcerting.

A trivial thing, but I really wish I could dye my hair. The gray streak has gotten bigger than I'm happy with. Wonder if I could manage it hanging over the sink standing on one foot.

That sounds neither safe nor comfortable.

ETA: What about backing a chair up to the sink and leaning backward?

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I can't lean back far enough. No one but family and doctors is going to see me for the next month anyway; I shouldn't fret about it.

I like gray hair. Of course, I may have just convinced myself since I am getting more of it. My hair is at the 'thinking about cutting it' stage. But cutting means having to do it again, while letting it grow just means having to twist it up in a clip. Much easier. I am super lazy when it comes to hair.

I am super lazy when it comes to hair.

Me too. Summer drives me to cut it very short and it gets annoyingly long when it starts cooling off, so I'm not driven to cut it. But I really like it summer-short, the curl hides the thinning spots and I like the way it looks. Hair style wasn't really something I was raised to think was important, "not a mess" was what we aimed for.

I just dislocated a rib while doing sit-ups. Clearly, my body hates me just as much as I hate it.