When we picked the kids up from sleepaway camp this summer, A emphatically did not want to come home. She denied missing us at all and wanted to live at camp forever.

Matilda wasn't that bad, but she was VERY happy at sleepaway camp and cried about leaving the camp and no tears when we dropped her off. She could have happily stayed another session.

And she resents us utterly for not providing her with a big sister, so after being spoiled rotten by the older girls in her cabin I can understand why coming home to her family would be a let down!)

Matilda's pretty happy with her older sib situation, but she definitely was thriving on having Super Cool Big Sisterly Counselors. But she also does well in a mentor role and always has. Indeed, she was very excited to go back to her elementary school today for the first time (now that softball is over) and see her former younger classmates.

Now that I think about it, she's SO much more socially and emotionally aware and capable than anybody else in our family. Certainly for her age she's ahead of where I or Emmett or JZ was at her age. But even just in general and throughout our extended family she's one of the most emotionally and socially adept .

Congrats Teppy! Lovely to get a raise without having to push someone to recognize how awesome you are.

Oh Nora, how horrific. I....there are not words.

Askye, sounds like someone at Belk has a clue. Good on them.

i was up there helping with his homework at his request .

I spent the day at Kelly's yesterday. CJ and his girlfriend came over for dinner while Haley was working on her math homework. CJ, the kid who STRUGGLES with school, sat down to Haley to help her through her math homework. Kelly and I just sat off to the side and boggled.

State of the Suzi - I'm still feeling jangly and just want to shut down and sleep. Yesterday I got an ultrasound on my chin (with a very awkward tech, to the point I complained to my doctor). There is a mass of some sort, so a CT is up next. My doc assured me that I would end up with a different tech for that imaging. I'm trying not to freak out about it. I made the mistake of googling "calcium concentration mandible". Ewwwww. Plus I really doubt the result is what I have as other stuff doesn't match, but ewwwwww.

So now that is circling the brain along with everything else. I have a discussion post due tonight for work, four papers due this weekend (two of which I can push into next week if needed). Work is going through busy/slow cycles, workload changes, policy changes, pre-acquisition changes, one of my big projects is ending and I just don't feel as solid as I have in years past.

Nora, I couldn't read past the headline, but how horrible.

All the ~ma, Suzi. I'm sorry you're dealing with so much.

One of ltc's molars broke through last night. So, mama was right about the reason for her mood. I'm in a lot of pain today, and feeling extraordinarily annoyed by physical limitations.

Yay molar! May she have some relief and provide you with some relief. I'm sorry you are struggling with pain today.

As noted, I sent a message to my doctor about how awkward the ultrasound tech was. The first line of her response - "there is a reason x ray folks work alone in the dark....Sorry that you did not have a good experience." I think I laughed for five minutes before I could read the rest of the message. I adore my doc.

I've taken my adderall, I've taken 1/2 a lorazepam, and 1/2 a buspar. My brain is just racing and I feel even more ADD than usual. After losing both Tuesday and half of yesterday to medical stuff, I really do have work I need to do. And yet, here I am, chatting with y'all.

Poor, ltc! No wonder so cranky/fussy.

Suzi, would it help you to schedule the work in sprints (Like Jane Espenson's writing sprints)?

I'm not familiar with that technique other than in agile software development which has me hating the words sprint, scrum, swarm, and retrospective.

Luckily this week had actually been fairly quiet. I'm not missing any deadlines. Tomorrow will be busy but workable.

I just took a chainmaille break between work and homework. The only thing I HAVE to do is a discussion response. My goal is to crawl in bed early.

Not an Agile sprint. It's like bursts of activity interspersed with breaks. Espenson does hour-long sessions. Unfuck Your Habitat recommends 20/10s for cleaning -- 20 minutes of work, 10 minutes of break.

Ahhh, I've done that with house cleaning and homework. I'm so tired of feeling paralyzed. I try to make small goals, lots of good enough instead of perfection, but I'm still struggling with even the smallest things. I want to crawl in bed by 9pm. But all I can think about is all the things I really should be doing instead of just doing the one thing I have to do.

Sorry for all the whining. Big picture my life is good. Maybe that is the trap - I shouldn't be fighting so hard because so many people are fighting to have a roof over their head or clean water to drink.

I am so tired. I forgot how tiring it can be especially at first. I got thrown on the sales floor to shadow someone and everyone was impressed how fast I picked up the register.

The store is...kinda sitting at the bottom of sales for the region but we are a small area. But one of the other shoe sales people was like "I don't bother vaccumming often. " I could tell. There is understaffed I guess but even 10 mins a night or picking up large things would make a difference.