That sounds incredibly rough, Epic. I'm sorry.
Do I wish I was somebody else right now. Somebody not... married, not madly in love with a beautiful woman who can kill me with her pinkie!
Wash ,'Our Mrs. Reynolds'
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Dana - Sep 14, 2017 2:15:47 pm PDT #1868 of 8213
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.
EpicTangent - Sep 14, 2017 3:00:16 pm PDT #1869 of 8213
Why isn't everyone pelting me with JOY, dammit? - Zenkitty
Thanks for letting me unload.
I feel like my tears are so near the surface at all times that if I talk about how upset or worried or stressed I am, I start weeping all over the place, so I'm trying to keep it all crammed down under minimal control. Not really succeeding (my boss joked about where I disappear to, so I told her I was hiding in a disused office so I could talk to my mom's dr, and it's obvious I've been crying, so maybe she'll let up on the jokes for a bit), but it was a relief to articulate it.
This is also when I start retreating and living in my head too much, so I'm trying to remember to reach out for what help is available to me, too.
Kate P. - Sep 14, 2017 3:07:44 pm PDT #1870 of 8213
That's the pain / That cuts a straight line down through the heart / We call it love
Epic, I'm so sorry it's such a tough time for you. That is a lot for you to handle. And you're not being selfish to want to take a day or night off to do something nice for yourself. Taking care of you is important too.
Hil R. - Sep 14, 2017 3:09:38 pm PDT #1871 of 8213
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l
I am far too stressed out and running on far too little sleep this week. I started crying in front of a coworker today. (Luckily, it was someone who I'm friendly with, and who I don't think will think that I'm a total freak for it.)
Pix - Sep 14, 2017 4:59:46 pm PDT #1872 of 8213
We're all getting played with, babe. -Weird Barbie
Epic, I'm so sorry. You're dealing with so much. Do you have a support system or people to give you sanity breaks? What can we do?
amyth - Sep 14, 2017 6:03:31 pm PDT #1873 of 8213
And none of us deserving the cruelty or the grace -- Leonard Cohen
Epic, I'm so sorry you're dealing with all of this. It's a lot. I agree with Kate--it's important to take time for yourself. I wish you didn't feel so alone in all of this. If you want to talk, let me know. I'm happy to.
Calli - Sep 15, 2017 1:45:29 am PDT #1874 of 8213
I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul—Calvin and Hobbs
Epic, that is a lot. I wish you had more F2F support. And I hope your dinner went better than expected.
Hil, I'm sorry about the stress.
amyth - Sep 15, 2017 3:29:33 am PDT #1875 of 8213
And none of us deserving the cruelty or the grace -- Leonard Cohen
Hil, and sj, sorry about all the stress.
Extra house ~ma to Pix and ND.
I didn't sleep a wink last night, so I'm going to have to leave work early and cancel physical therapy, because it's not safe for me to drive when I haven't slept. Too much of a seizure risk. Blah!
Calli - Sep 15, 2017 6:23:04 am PDT #1876 of 8213
I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul—Calvin and Hobbs
Insomnia is the worst, amyth. Sorry.
sj - Sep 15, 2017 8:38:17 am PDT #1877 of 8213
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
{{{Epic}}} I'm so sorry that for all you are dealing with and that you don't have a good meatspace support system.
Amyth, insomnia is evil. I hope you get some rest tonight.
Thanks for the support yesterday. Mom and I ended up sorting through and washing all the clothes ltc got for her birthday. The only thing I have to return is a pair of skinny jeans. Why do they make skinny jeans for 2 year olds again. Poor ltc was totally squished when I put them on her.