Watched It's a Wonderful Life (after Matilda marathoned Project Runway all day).

Then topped it off with the 70s episode of the Supersizers Go...

I feel...meh about 2017.

I was remembering how there was this whole part of my body which relaxed when Obama was first elected and Bush left office.

And now I am ready to tense up again. To live in opposition to every fucking thing the government will do.

I just remembered the visceral loathing I felt towards GWB and Cheney, especially as their administration went out. I couldn't bear to look at their faces. It's going to be worse.

And I just wonder how much damage they'll do to institutions which help anybody in our country who isn't white and wealthy and straight.

Will they succeed in attacking Social Security? Will they sell off National Parks? Will they start wars? Will they allow Putin to move on the Balkans? Will they install somebody worse than Scalia on the Supreme Court?

My sense of ease and trust and hope and sense of progress is coming to a violent curtailment.

I was remembering how there was this whole part of my body which relaxed when Obama was first elected and Bush left office.

This.

Yeah, it's the new year now and I don't feel happy. I feel anxious.

I think 2016 gave me PTSD.

Made it to midnight, had my greens and peas. Just a few fireworks in the neighborhood, loud but hopefully over.

Be better than I expect, 2017. Please.

stayed up til midnight, then woke up at 3:30, finally got out of bed at 5:30. I think this is the steroid shot.

Anyway, I washed dishes, made coffee, made myself breakfast & fed the dogs.

I need to do quite a few things today, so LIST TIME:

- sweep living room & kitchen
- vacuum living room area rug
- mail 4-5 things
- pick up mail for work (so it doesn't have to be done tomorrow)
- measure window pane
- get window screen out (I think it is caulked in)
- go buy window pane & anything else needed for repair
- replace window pane & make child help
- clean bathroom
- have child do laundry, pack bag, and do anything else needed for going to school tomorrow
- either take things to thrift store or list things on ebay
- pack lunch for tomorrow
- lay out clothes for tomorrow
- finish self-eval that was due yesterday

If time, things I would like to do

- read
- write general winter holiday cards
- cast on a hat to knit

I moved all on lj stuff from years gone by over to dreamwidth. I probably still won;t use it much, but figure I should find my people to follow there. I am msbelle there too.

half cleaned bathroom while showering and getting ready.

Now prepping mail.

Woke myself up coughing. Woohoo.

I deleted my Livejournal account. That felt weird. I don't think I've put more than one or two entries a year in since fandom moved to Tumblr, but once that was my main fannish source of info and interaction. I opened my account in 2002. Oh well. It's all archived over at Dreamwidth.

Speaking of things fannish, I woke up to 19 emails announcing authors I follow on AO3 had posted fic. That was a nice start to the year. Gaia bless Yuletide.

And I started the day with homemade Greek-style yogurt (yum), coffee, and 'Spurs football. Last night I played Firefly Clue (Jayne in the kitchen with a wrench), Doctor Who Yatzee and Bananagrams with a couple of friends while we waited out 2016.

Happy new year my bestistas