Gud, I do wish you the best. I hope you will be able to find the help and support that you need. Also,

Now she's angry that I didn't wish her luck on her first day

SO and I constantly forget each other's birthdays, and have "oh, is it today?" for other important stuff. While it disappoints and hurts every now and then, it's nothing we would ever think to argue over or frown on - to forget and err is human, we are both Busy People, and we make up for it in other ways.

Heading to therapist shortly to work on some coping strategies on a variety of issues including how to support my husband's depression and anxiety without getting lost in it.

All the power to you, Nora. This is hard.

My wife suggested seeing a therapist for depression figuring that the hospital stay would max out my individual deductible anyhow, making it more affordable.

Yeah, if that's the case, lean on that insurance. I romped merrily through he medical system the past two years, when I maxed out my benefits with relatively minor surgeries.

If you have maxed out the deductible you may be close to hitting your out of pocket maximum. Your wife should check that for you. Once you hit that cap you pay ZERO out of pocket. I hit that 2 years. If you have also see how many therapy sessions ar covered and then go as much as possible.

For a whole therapy was like my job. I was going 2x a week individually and 1x a week for group. It made a huge difference and be open to intensive outpatient programs. Your wife might not like it but they can be helpful and a good step to help and isn't hospitalization.

I am 3 years out of being admitted to the hospital for psychiatric care from the ER. It's a lot of hard work to get where I am and I hope you don't hit the bottom that I did.

Gud - I hope the therapist works. I think that is a very good step.

My therapist and I agreed last week to stop my therapy.

Yesterday I was RAGING, I thought no lunch was adding to it, but nope, still would like to physically hurt (not metaphor) people today. And I keep crying, so this feels anxiety attack-like.

I've closed out my other social media screens just now, yell at me if you see me there before this evening.

I hope this is not menapause mood swing related. I've been have hot flashes recently, so it could be. I do not like at all not one bit.

Back of mind nagging underlying all this: Why do I talk and post so much, it's so annoying. Not needing hairpats just needing to brain dump it all so it'll stop cycling.

msbelle: Talk and post more! Here because I prefer to spend my time here. Better than punching people, probably. I don't think I had a lot of mood issues when I was menopausal, but it was a while ago. The things that seriously alter my mood are sleep deprivation, or hunger. It happens infrequently because I work hard to avoid those conditions, but my family notices right away and suggests I fix it.

Similarly to Hulk I operate generally with a lot of anger, always have. It just doesn't look like anger outwardly most of the time.

Yesterday someone cut me off and dismissed my CORRECT assessment of what we needed to do in a work situation and I wanted to leap over my desk at him. From our coworkers expressions, my face made those feelings clear. I have not recovered yet. Throat punches all around are warranted, I think.

So I'm staying in my office and have the radio on, but my mind is just spinning.

Yesterday someone cut me off and dismissed my CORRECT assessment of what we needed to do in a work situation and I wanted to leap over my desk at him.

I have moments like that. Fortunately I work at home.

Tomorrow is my blessed blessed work from home day and I hope I can reset a bit of the rage. My plan is to get some food in the crock pot in the morning and have meal prep for the week done by bedtime.

Maxing out the deductible is a freeing experience.