Eh, not summing up. I am currently trying to avoid an unpleasant task I've so far avoided for eight years. Gods willing it may be nine.
Outside decorations are down, exception wreath, which stays up till Epiphany--or Old Christmas, whichever comes last, as do the candles in the front windows and all the interior stuff.
Poking at husband to inventory power tools and firearms. I doubt that will include each item's dollar worth, but at least with proper ID I can find current value should I ever need to sell.
I'm doing the same for my tarot decks (currently 134 tarot, 4 rune, 4 I Ching, 2 Ogham, and 17 Oracle decks), locating and making note of matching books and stored original boxes where applicable, and listing my collector and artist bears, with suggestions of secondary market outlets should he wish to sell.
He's got his 2018 wall calendars up, and I'm dragging my feet on updating my planner pages and storing 2017 with past records.
Happy New Year, Best Beloved Buffistas!
ohh maybe 2018 will be the year my dad will sell some of his guns. That would be good.
Well, 2017 sucked. Starting off 2018 immensely depressed.
Gud, you deserve care for your depression, and you deserve other people to treat you with kindness and understanding. I'm sorry if it hard to believe right now, and I'm sorry you are hurting.
Well, last weekend my wife really lit into me about how selfish I am and... well, maybe I'm just fundamentally a rotten person. I also realized I screwed up and never re-installed analytics when I last redid her website. Maybe I did it on purpose and forgot that I did, I don't know. Just been feeling like a waste of space for the last week or so.
What WindSparrow said. Gud, you need to just hold a mirror up when your wife starts that. She's clearly the one who thinks everything revolves around her.
I was hoping to photograph today, but I stepped outside, and it was 18°, and I went NOPE.
I've been taking photos of the ice creature growing on my window.
And now I'm trying to make the thread about me. Nevermind, I'm fine. I'll be fine.
The thread is about all of us. Talking about yourself is never out of place.
Can you explain to me how you are selfish? I think if you try to express it, you'll immediately see how ridiculous it is.
Gudanov, a drowning person is not selfish. When you reach out here for validation, that is is your soul grasping for a life preserver. You are hurting, you are depressed. You are fighting anxiety. And not everyone in your life is kind and supportive of you. The part of you that says you deserve to be treated unkindly is sadly mistaken. You deserve kindness. You deserve compassion. You deserve respect. That there are people in your life who do not meet that obligation, the fault is in them. THE PROBLEM IS NOT INSIDE YOU. You may not be ready to believe it, but you are worthy of love, and you are worthy of kindness, and you are worthy of understanding.
We worry about you Gud. You are not being treated with the love and respect that is supposed to exist between spouses. It isn't right or fair. I've worked with my husband for nearly 30 years and I know well that if I screwed up and forgot to install something he would react by apologizing for putting too much on my plate. I know because this is how he treats me. If he forgets something my first reaction is that he has too much going on and that I should have calendared it for him. Partners. Helping each other. Supporting each other. Never blaming or abusing each other. We all make mistakes and deserve understanding and support.
eta: xposty with the wise WindSparrow
