I was on the bus last night and a young woman was talking on the phone. From what she was saying, people from her workplace are starting to get feelers about working for the new administration. Some of them are saying that they will not work for them. From the context, it sounds like they have a team of researchers and those researchers are now talking about having to look for new jobs. At one point she said, "I thought we were working for the good guys." (or words to that effect)

I feel like my head is a balloon today. I don't really know how to describe it any other way. I'm trying to work, but my focus is all over the place. I took my Adderall but that doesn't seem to help. I feel all coiled up inside, ready to spring - sort of. Again, not sure how best to explain that. It is almost like being high, but I haven't taken anything that would put me in an altered state. I have a lot to do today and I'm having Lasik tomorrow. I know some of this is anxiety over getting all that done. But I'm still so numb after Tuesday.

Part of my dealing is that I wanted to create something but I also wanted to connect with all my friends and do something for the people I care so much about.

I put a note out on FB asking who wanted a shot of whiskey. And I'm offering it here. I'm not explaining what I'm sending but if you want to take YOUR SHOT - hit me up on FB in a PM with your address or send me an e-mail to my profile address.

I'm going to Mexico on Saturday and I'm just not thinking or planning beyond that yet. I'm on a news blackout and only skimming FB for the most part.

When I get back I'll rejoin the fight. Right now I'm clinging to denial for a few days more.

JESSE! This episode has Hugh Bonneville! Obviously you must watch it.

Have a great trip, brenda. I hear you about the denial. I'm not sure how else to process it. I have an email from my parents (currently pre-wintering in SC) asking what I think of the outcome that I am just ignoring, unanswered. It may remain that way.

Jury's been deliberating about 8 hours now in the local police stop murder trial (two blocks from my work.) We've done ok with this kind of thing in recent years - since the huge 2001 riots - but I wish this wasn't happening this week, of all weeks.

The only common ground I want to find is where people who voted for Trump acknowledge the humanity and equal citizenship of people who aren't like them. Other than that, not so much.

Jury's been deliberating about 8 hours now in the local police stop murder trial (two blocks from my work.) We've done ok with this kind of thing in recent years - since the huge 2001 riots - but I wish this wasn't happening this week, of all weeks.

I genuinely forgot about it in the last 18 hours. Sheesh.

That bodycam footage is pretty damning, but then US juries don't seem to give a shit about that. So.

... and my backup drive with all my old tv and audiobook files on it has died. Damnit.

Do you think a computer shop could save my data if I brought it in with another drive to copy it onto?

I have been on news blackout, and expect to only watch CBS Sunday Morning for a while. I have HGTV buffering for when I want background tv.