Anxiety cheer!!

I got a brain-shaped stress ball at my last training thingy.

I feel like I see those everywhere. Maybe I'm subconsciously looking for them.

Little ball of nerves

Stressing out, freaking out, fuck

why is the rum gone

I want to hit a Like button.

I kind of regret that most booze tastes like ass to me.

Don't worry Zen, we've all been there. Take some deep breaths. Then you're going to need to go to some hardware stores and buy a large tarp, some concrete blocks, and some rope. Buy all the items individually at different stores and pay cash.

Then you're going to need to find a large body of water, preferably deep. Just scout out the location for now, you'll need to wait until dark (best around 1-3 am) before taking care of it.

I called and spoke to a person about a personal trainer. I hate calling people I do not know, so I should be off for the rest of the day AND/OR should get ice cream with no caloric consequences.

MAKE IT SO!

I'm sorry, Zen. I wish there was something I could do to help.

I'm basically ready to step away from all media--social included--for the next few days. I already have 9/11 fatigue, and I don't need to see it replayed ad nauseum. I lived it; I sure as hell don't need people who were nowhere near it being all "Rah Rah 'Murica, those damn dirty Muslims," and posting the same pictures of NY and DC.

I understand the idea of shared trauma, and this event was a national tragedy, but the not-so-nice part of me is screaming inside, "You weren't there and you have no fucking clue." If I say this anywhere else but here, I will be flayed for it. So you are the lucky ones...

Go msbelle!

(If what I posted above is triggery for you--or anyone else--please tell me. I'll whitefont or delete it.)

Not for me, I am right there with you. Not afraid to tell people over the next few days to STFU. I will be mainlining tv shows all weekend.

Gud, unfortunately, most of the people who would be involved in that stress-relieving exercise are in other states, and to get there I'd probably leave a record of having passed through the toll booths.

I'm actually okay. The stress is normal, manageable stress. I'm just tired of it. I'm more tired than upset.

I'm going to be off social media this weekend, for sure. I don't want to hear or see anything about 9/11. I remember it clearly, I don't need to relive it.

I kind of regret that most booze tastes like ass to me.

I can mix you such a drink, you won't even taste it.