My desk is cleaned out. Next, lunch!

I assumed I knew what my manager wanted re: goals, but it turns out I was wrong and I just have to help with a thing. Totally doable! Ass = me, not u.

I feel like something is telling me to reprioritize my life, and stop letting my work consume all my energy and drain all my joy.

Oh, man. Yeah. Right now I'm totally consumed with this work move, but I'm doing it because I hope the new job will stop my work from being an energy creature. Joy is good. Maybe choose it if you can.

I feel like something is telling me to reprioritize my life, and stop letting my work consume all my energy and drain all my joy.

That's a good plan. I need to do something similar. What I need is a job that doesn't feel so pointless, because I feel like the suckiness of my job, and the lack of enthusiasm I have for it, just leaks into the rest of my life.

Yeah, my job is not really working for me. It's a big thing.

Yeah, my job is not really working for me. It's a big thing.

Hey, I know this feeling!

Yeah, my job is not really working for me. It's a big thing.

Hey, I know this feeling!

Lee, Dana! My sisters!

I really just want to travel and see friends and family. And a cool place or two.

Ugh I know that feeling too. Am not at all looking forward to the next two weeks at work, which will be stressful and difficult. I did a couple things wrong and am not happy about that, but feel like I've had so much on my plate that they should be happy about what I have accomplished. I really want to throw my hands up and say "screw you all I'm out" but know that's not a realistic option. Where is my winning lotto ticket?

I am frequently grateful that my job, while perhaps not my ideal, is fine. Fine is pretty good!

Where is my winning lotto ticket?

Yes, where is my winning lotto ticket? I just want to be a lady of leisure, get a dog and many cats, move to London and go to theatre all the time.

Sister is being released from hospital and will soon be on her way home. Whew.

I did a couple things wrong and am not happy about that, but feel like I've had so much on my plate that they should be happy about what I have accomplished.

RIGHT?! Geez, all the crap I take care of and make all better, and nobody sees that.

I really want to throw my hands up and say "screw you all I'm out" but know that's not a realistic option.

So much.

Most of the time my job is fine. I just have to try not to lose my shit on the days and weeks when it's not fine. I'm talking to my boss today about reorganizing how my work is done to make it more fine more of the time (I hope). I can't realistically quit, but I can't keep going like I have been anymore, either.

Here's a new one. We are considering rescinding a job offer.

Pro-tip: when you are hired for a very junior role, commensurate with your very junior level of experience, sitting on the offer for several days and then calling to exhaustively review whether you will be able to impact strategy, what guarantees you had that your work would be "high level" and not tactical stuff, how you might move into a different and more visible role if that were what you decided you wanted, how quickly you could expect to be able to do that, what steps would you need to take to move into other areas of the firm, etc etc? For 45 minutes? Not the greatest idea.

I assume there was also a request for more money buried in there somewhere, but my manager was so flabbergasted at all of this it probably barely registered.

I mean seriously, who has time for that? You know every three days would be some new complaint about being asked to do stuff that was in her job description beneath her.