I just threadsucked a whole bunch because I'd mainlined a show and wondered what we'd said. Yeah, ita said something. There were a lot of threads and places that she and I didn't share, so I think even here I will always sometimes go into the past and find new words from her. Very bittersweet.
'Ariel'
ita's thread
A place where we can talk about ita, miss ita, and share information about memorials. The hugging started over here in Natter.
On Sunday night, a coworker thanked me for introducing her to the term "chosen family". She lost her brother last summer (he had had a successful heart transplant in his youth), then was out of work due to two surgeries and a heart attack and only came back in January. I had kept my sorrow to myself at work, though I was fairly bursting with it. But coworker does the overnight shifts, and people are in bed when she gets there. So she was the only person I could have a deep, vulnerable conversation with. It started when she mentioned staying in contact with the family of the person whose heart her brother received - how they became like family. She was the only person I felt I could tell about ita. In explaining this place, I used the phrase. In turn, she used it to comfort a dear friend who gets very little support from her blood relatives and was feeling alone in the world.
That's wonderful, Windi.
I finally bought some Black Honey lipstick. It's wonderful, of course. Now I wear it and think her beautiful smile.
Clearing out a desk drawer, and found a Hello Kitty note from ita. Can't toss it. It's tucked into my planner cover right now.
I keep stumbling over her in my mind or in the threads.
I was letting my mind wander at work and started thinking about the show Highlander, and suddenly remember her love for Methos.
Or finally watching my Game of Thrones Season 4 DVDs and going into Premium to see what everyone said and there she is.
I saw a very snarky plot recap of Supernatural and thought that ita would laugh at it. Le sigh, le sob.
If she is in the internet, she is, probably. We got that Jamaican take-out again. SO awesome. I need to put up the pic of me and Ting...you know...Chica Ting.
I have to admit, my form of dealing is I get angry at y'all for the memories or whatever. I'm... Not sharing, All on me, not you. But Sunday, walking the lake, theme from The Unit came up on the rando nano, and I fucking hated that device. And then I laughed.
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I wore the Black Honey to a very important meeting yesterday and felt really confident.