I don't know how to deal with the fact that I won't get to read her complaints about ScarJo not being able to do action when the new Avengers movie comes out.
That's been my Anya-fruit-punch-speech reaction. She won't get to see Avengers 2. She won't get to see the rest of SPN. I'm not sure where she was going with her questions about binders and genderfuckery, but she won't get to do that, either.
Unless maybe she will. Who knows? (Not getting into existential stuff right now; I know some people here believe this is all we get, and others believe there's something more. Right now, I'm in the "who knows?" place, which is okay. Ish.)
I'm like a lot of folks, I never had the chance to meet ita in person, but I looked forward to being able to do that some day. But in some ways, I still feel like I met her, because she was such a larger than life personality on this board and I feel like, even without having seen pictures of her, I would recognize her in a crowd just from that force of personality. Damn. Just, damn.
The part of me that observing the part of me that is grieving is sort of astonished. Not that I'm crying or sad but just how deeply my sense of loss goes.
Reading stuff like shrift's comment about ita's thoughts on Scarjo just really get me.
When Age of Ultron comes out, of course I will scurry here to see what everyone has to say but...and all due respect to EVERYone...I'd search for ita's comments first.
I never even realized that was true until this minute.
I have to get up and go to rehearsal soon, thankfully, because I'm probably at the point where refreshing the board and FB and LJ endlessly isn't helping me.
I haven't been around for a long time but came home to the news about ita today and had to come check in. This is just rotten, sad, terrible news. I wasn't as close to ita as many but her words usually had me high-fiving my laptop and hoping that even an ounce of her kickassery would wear off on me.
If anyone gets an afterlife, it should be her.
there's no word for "a person who you've met online, but never in person, and interact with in some way on an almost daily basis and has had a profound impact on your life."
"Friend"
Exactly.
It's the word I used. She was my friend. Not because we'd shared meals or exchanged emails but because of this board. Those other things made the friendship stronger but so does every interaction here.
With me it's sushi, and specifically omakase. I knew we would never go to the Hump, but I can't believe no more omakase.
t random
AT work several people asked how I was doing and asked me about my friend who'd died. And I told them about her martial arts and the pink ginham and showed a picture someone had put up on FB - the black and white one of her looking so fierce. And I mentioned her absolute loathing for ScarJo as Black Widow beause of the terrible physicality. Not just all the stunt doubles but the poor gun handling.
When Age of Ultron comes out I'm going to be looking closely for all of that.
