Flags at half-mast, mirrors covered.

Yes.

Oh, thank God you posted in this thread, Bev.

I know it's stupid but I was really wanting to see your pixels here tonight.

I agree about the letter, but only if you feel up to it Amy.

Eta: I keep thinking my thoughts are stupid because the world is stupid right now.

Amy is the perfect writing choice because writer, but also because if ita didn't write it then I trust Amy with the thoughts.

Okay my favorite SPN ita posting was during a season finale and she was pissed ahead of time, convinced there was a pretty good chance that they were going to kill Cas.

All we had heard for at least a week was what a mistake killing Cas was and what idiots the show was being.

The watch and post for the finale started with the Impala being the most important thing in the world. I posted, Oh shit, they're going to kill the car.

ita posted, No! Not the car! Take Cas!

I laughed so hard knowing how much she loved Castiel and how quickly she was willing to sacrifice him for the car.

I need to go look for that. It felt good to remember that.

She loved Baby, it's true.

And thank you, Theresa. In the next few days I'm going to write something about ita, one way or another.

And share it with us, right, Amy?

Oh yes, Bev.

I'm back online after running away around noon. I'm not up to catching up in the other threads, I cried all morning. I cried for ita and for the passing of others I haven't been able to cry for. Not about me. Moving on.

I know the creation of a separate SPN thread was drama, but I'm glad show got its own place. ita never held back here (not that she held back anywhere) and gave me/us new insights to consider.

She was my Secret Santa last year (2013) and one of my gifts was an SPN hex bag. When it arrived, she hadn't yet revealed herself. She waited until she had completed a portrait of the Tenth Doctor.

I've been rereading old conversations from the second Show thread, remembering our fic peeving and rec'ing, actually rereading some of those stories because D/C is where we connected, me begging her to read this one because I wanted her to share my love for it (or tear it apart, didn't matter, just wanted to share it). I don't think she ever did.

Part of the reason I got back into SPN was because of how much ita loved it. I'd given up part way into the first season, but seeing how much love she gave the show inspired me to give it another chance. Now it's one of my favorites.

When I watch the show, I'll imagine ita watching too.

There has been an all day SPN marathon on TNT today. I'm choosing to think it is in ita's honor. If it is a regularly scheduled thing, I don't want to know.