Theresa, I was driving back from upstate NY today, six hours in the car by myself, and I was mentally composing a letter to Jared, Jensen, and Misha about ita, and what the show meant to her, and how it made us friends, and what she meant to me, and how she defended John wherever and whenever she could, and how she drew a picture based on one of the first SPN fics I ever wrote and shared, and how I wrote Destiel stories specifically for her...

There is a huge fucking hole.

It's so stupid, but I keep thinking that watching the show when it comes back next week is going to hurt like hell.

It's not at all stupid. I've been thinking the same thing.

Amy, if you can bear to do it, I do think you should write and send that letter.

It's so stupid, but I keep thinking that watching the show when it comes back next week is going to hurt like hell.

Not stupid at all. I am grateful that there isn't an episode tonight.

I think I'm going to, Anne.

Misha is friends with Colin, so the connection there isn't as far-fetched as maybe we're thinking. I'm sure Colin told Misha (and Misha probably mentioned it to J2--or at least Jensen) that his friend ita was a big fan.

I don't know if you'd want to try to go through Colin, or just write directly to Misha. Whatever would get the letter in their hands--or the tweet on their feed, whichever.

There's just this...echo. Especially in this thread.

I feel very much like we should be whispering in here, and keeping the lights dim or something. It's like a church with no priest.

Flags at half-mast, mirrors covered.

Yes.

Oh, thank God you posted in this thread, Bev.

I know it's stupid but I was really wanting to see your pixels here tonight.

I agree about the letter, but only if you feel up to it Amy.

Eta: I keep thinking my thoughts are stupid because the world is stupid right now.

Amy is the perfect writing choice because writer, but also because if ita didn't write it then I trust Amy with the thoughts.

Okay my favorite SPN ita posting was during a season finale and she was pissed ahead of time, convinced there was a pretty good chance that they were going to kill Cas.

All we had heard for at least a week was what a mistake killing Cas was and what idiots the show was being.

The watch and post for the finale started with the Impala being the most important thing in the world. I posted, Oh shit, they're going to kill the car.

ita posted, No! Not the car! Take Cas!

I laughed so hard knowing how much she loved Castiel and how quickly she was willing to sacrifice him for the car.

I need to go look for that. It felt good to remember that.

She loved Baby, it's true.

And thank you, Theresa. In the next few days I'm going to write something about ita, one way or another.