I was exhausted the whole day, but I think I finally have a psych who is on-point. He tried me on a Halcion/Xanax combo for the insomnia and anxiety, and I kept a crazy detailed log of EVERYTHING (dosages, times takens, food/drink consumed, exercise), and when my Ambien refill came back in, I was able to show him the data about how the Ambien interacted...and he didn't get shirty about me experimenting with dosages, just agreed that it was obvious that 20 mgs of Ambien combines with Xanax was actually what worked for me and didn't treat me like a druggie.

I think the meticulous spreadsheet helped. And when I told him I was a big nerd, he said he actually appreciated a client who was active in her own treatment, and had detailed feedback.

And unlike every other psych I've ever been to, he actually listens for a decent period of time, instead of just throwing an Rx at you in the shortest amount of time.

ita, I'm so glad you're back on a normal regimen. And I say get thee a pot card ASAP. If it were legal here, I would use it for anxiety in a hot minute. I offered to get my mom pot when she had chemo if she needed it (THAT was a weird mother/daughter moment) and I still smoke recreationally occasionally, and it ALWAYS makes my anxiety less.

When I was younger and smoked way more pot, I always smoked when I had my debilitating period cramps and migraines. I think it's stupid that it's not legal in most states, and I would feel no more self-conscious about smoking or eating it if it were than I would having a cocktail. Less, actually, since I think pot is less harmful than booze.

Note: Invest in a vaporizer, since you are not a regular smoker. It will be easier and better for your lungs.

I am glad today is SUNNY. It's been chilly and rainy and drear for three days, and I felt gross about it.

I got a ride with a friend to Market Basket this morning -- at 8, the store was packed already, so it was good to have a wingman to wind through the crowded aisles (we shared a shopping cart) and chat while getting a bunch of necessities that I don't want to carry back on a long walk, like liquids and eggs.

The downside is that Market Basket doesn't have as many organic/dairyfree alternative products so I still have to hit another grocery store soon.

For some reason, the onset o autumn has made me cranky and I only want to sleep and eat. I think I may be part bear, ready to hibernate.

ita, I hope the pot works well for you. I have a friend with MS who really saw good results. Not only with pain, but it relaxed her enough that she slept better. And you might want to try different ways of taking it. For her, eating it wasn't as helpful as smoking it, the body stone was too much.

Sue, I usually LOVE autumn, and I feel really cranky this year, too.

I think I'll make zucchini bread today. It'll warm up the kitchen, and I've got to grate these zucchini in the fridge anyway.

Weird question: is anyone else a two-fisted drinker in the morning? Er...like with a mug of coffee/tea AND a big glass of water? I've started doing this recently because my allergy meds leave me feelings SO PARCHED in the a.m., and the coffee is necessary, but doesn't quite cut the parchidity.

is anyone else a two-fisted drinker in the morning? Er...like with a mug of coffee/tea AND a big glass of water?

I don't alternate, but the first thing I do in the morning is take my meds/supplements (oh god, I AM SO OLD) with a pint glass of water. And then I hit the coffee.

Okay, the funniest thing just happened. I went out on the porch to get the mail, and 2 of our neighbors were taking a walk with their dog and pushing a stroller. It's 46 degrees, and I realized that the husband was wearing shorts, and after we said hi, how are you, I asked "Aren't you freezing in those shorts?" And in response, he turned the stroller toward me and showed me that it was empty. And then he started laughing and said, "We're getting the dog used to walking with a stroller" -- it was ONLY at this point that I even realized that wife is probably 7 months pregnant -- "and I decided that if I was going to look crazy for pushing an empty stroller, I should go all the way and wear shorts in this weather."

I told him to get a Halloween pumpkin and put it in the stroller. And the wife said "That's what I told him!" The husband said "Oh, because THAT wouldn't look crazy!" And I said, "Well, decorate it. Oh! Do you have an ultrasound picture? Tape it to the pumpkin!" And the wife's eyes lit up and she said "We need to do that when we get home!"

My work here is done.

Your neighborhood sounds awesome.

I do water then breakfast then coffee, typically. Unless I go out for breakfast and they start bringin me coffee immediately. I have taken to keeping a water bottle on my nightstand so I can get that first cup in me before I even get up, and then have another with my morning meds.

Speaking of, I have broken my fast (which I decided to keep for only 12 hours because Reasons) n that I've had some water. I think I'll go see how the bagels are at the coffee bar.

It is my idea of perfect weather here (partly cloudy, mid-60s), and I have a cold, so I can't appreciate it. Better now than over the next few weeks which have job interviews, though. Oh well. Eventually I'll get up the energy to take a shower today (yesterday didn't quite reach those heights of ambition) and it'll probably be the best thing ever.

ita, I'm glad the meds situation is working out a bit better.

That is fantastic, Steph!