So I didn't get the UCLA position. Nice spiel about how I was next in line, but the person who got it had subject matter expertise that I lacked--well, what can I say.
I am mentally and financially at the breaking point, and will do anything that pays my rent and leaves me with sanity, It's like all my cope and "I have a good feeling about this" and "I've done everything I can" all exploded at the same time.
One of the recruiters says she has a nearby paper pushing gig that will barely pay the bills, but I refuse to get excited about that or anything for quite a while.