Yeah, you totally had Not A Break At All.

I hope so. I'm pretty sure I can't handle things too much worse than I am right now. So it had better be better. Whic reminds me, I need to go start working on my psych screening.

I did enjoy my walk down to the harbor with the cool breeze. And I read a lot of Atlantic articles online (thank god for free wifi in the courts.) But I sure as hell would hate a multiweek trial. Of course, the one time I was seated, Dumbest Case Ever. I hated everyone in that case, both for what lead to it and for fucking wasting our time with complete bullshit. They all should have just kept taking turns beating up on each other (they sucked at causing actual injury) and putting up defamatory graffiti.

So that soured me a bit.

I just have to survive until the end of sabbatical, and maybe it'll be better by then? I dunno.

Well at least it will be later.

Ugh Liese, I hope the sabbatical offers more respite than it now appears.

And Kat, you did get a bad break on the summer. I can't believe the school year is about to start! I just bought the kids school clothes. Isaac had outgrown all but 2 pairs of his pants.

Day two of karate dizziness. This is NOT COOL. If it is the new med, it is supposed to go away eventually. I haven't been in the dojo much and I don't want to avoid but this sucks. If it isn't the med, I'm kinda at a loss as to the cause. Which also sucks.

When we learn our techniques and forms we learn them "righty" but as you hit the upper belts, you need to be able to do them "righty" and "lefty". Today we worked on doing the forms "lefty". Talk about making my brain work on top of the dizzy crap. It was a good workout, despite the frustration.

I kept saying I just needed to survive until sabbatical, but I don't suppose I expected to be all revved up once it actually started.

That's what we always think, though, I just need to get get through this part and then I'll be fine even though it doesn't usually work that way. I mean, there's fine and there's fine. And whatever "this" is, there's always other stuff and neglecting the other stuff because of "this" doesn't help with them. Can I vague that up any more?

You are a rockstar, Suzi! I hope the dizziness eases up shortly.

So I found a lump. It feels like it's on one of my abdominal muscles or organs under my left rib. I'm at the doctor to get it checked out. It's probably nothing. But still. I'm anxious.

Almost certainly nothing, Pix--especially if you just did that half, maybe you bumped something or gave yourself a little hernia or something. But good on you for going right to the doctor to get it checked out!! May your prompt action mean there was no need for prompt action!

I am so full of nope today, re: work. And possibly re: life. I just am feeling grumpy. I have some work to do, but it's not a huge amount and while it SHOULD be done today, most of it really doesn't NEED to be done today. So procrastinatey me is not feeling the need, and irked at my boss, so...yeah. This is where working from home is both handy and very bad for me. I feel like I should figure out something awesome to do this afternoon and just blow off work, but then I don't really have any great ideas. But blowing off work in favor of farting around on the internet is not really a great plan either. ;)

Nothing~ma, Pix!

How much would I love to blow off work with meara today? So much. I should take advantage of not having anything super pressing today to work on some of the projects that I've been bemoaning I didn't have time for, and ultimately that's what I'll do today, but I sure don't want to.

My deadlines are all wonky this week. Less priority on most stuff but it still needs to get done. Way too much effort involved in keeping motivated.

I want to go to karate today, but after the last two days I'm wondering if I should allow more time for my body to get used to the med or if I should just power through.