Have been dark dark grey, unable even to keep up the natter diet. So `ma to anyone who needs it. These days I only watch TV an hour a day during workouts or on days I've had treatments that leave me unable to work. I've been working on a mini-book (30,000 or so words) that I consider important. And basically any time I'm not spending doing chores and medical stuff and things like exercise that I need to slow down the rate at which I get worse, I spend working on it. This is the kind of thing I once could have knocked out in six weeks and have now been working since mid-January. But I just have to live with the fact that my productivity is going to be much much lower and work will go much more slowly until and unless medical facts change.
Speaking medical facts. I have a new hemotologist. He did some blood tests to try and determine whether or not I have kidney problems (follow up creatine tests contadict the original diagnosis so he is running something other than a creatine test to check). He is also checking other possibilities. If he does not find an explanaiton for my anemia he will do a bone marrow test. Not thrilling, but I agree this has gone on for too long without a cause diagnosed. Also, untreated anemia may be why my diabetic retinopathy is not getting better - so a diagnosis of the anemia will give me a much better chance of not going blind. Given that, I'm glad he is taking agressive steps to track down the cause of this. You know, I've found most of the medicaid doctors to be pretty damn good. My former hematolgist was an exception. This guy, unlike him has an awful beside manner. But I think he is a good doctor; so to hell with beside manner.