Stuck home, I got to hear ALL of npr tonight. Chewed on this piece for a bit [link] not just for the story's angle, but the introvert and the stressed and the _____. Spoons.

There's that, but pushing the point after the first decline of the offer made me go "Hm." I did thank him for the offer.

Yeah, if he's concerned about you, and knows you won't think he's hitting on you, he probably thought "oh, she probably doesn't want to drive far, maybe I should make it easier and offer to go to her".

sara, is that part of an ongoing series? I have some stress around money, but I have just insane-o stress about caregiving crap.

In other news, the upside to an aborted vacation is that we get to harvest stuff from our garden box. The tomatoes taste pretty good (delicious with cucumbers and onions). The eggplants are just filling out. The crookneck squash is gross (I don't like squash). The watermelons are absolutely NUTS. More watermelon than I care to eat. After we harvest this, we may replant warm weather crops for September/october and then harvest those and replant lettuce/kale etc for November/December

< Ô > Just checking.

I don't know. But it's a variation on the spoon theory anyway. Be your spoons spent on money, calamities, caregiving, time...

Randomish thought (I've been re-reading LJ posts as well as bureaucracy stuff here).

I used to be much more engaged in battle on the internet. I mean, really deeply involved.

Now, I'm pretty distant (for most things). In some ways, the internet is a much nicer, less confrontational place. Is it because my internet experiences are way less interactive and way more broadcasting. Or is it because I just have fewer spoons?

Oh! We're going to San Francisco on Wednesday.

I HATE LOOKING AT MY BUDGET.

I get so mad at myself for spending on things and then I look at my set monthly expenses and there is so very little to trim. So it is all eating out and clothes and extra stuff that has to be cut. Like maybe I could get cheaper electricity since I did not shop around last time, but is that gonna save a ton? no. I should cut back on lawn watering, that actually will save some. The part where I hate everything money related is RIGHT HERE RIGT NOW.

I just dusted under (excavated?) the refrigerator in the hope that this would make the refrigerator stop freezing my vegetables in the vegetable drawer. Frozen vegetables in the freezer are okay, but frozen lettuce and cucumbers make me sad.

The kittens thought the dusters and the dustpan were awesome new games. I kept having to move kittens out of the way to pull out dust bunnies and dirt and refrigerator magnets and part of a broken glass. One kitten got her claws in the extendable duster and I dragged her across the kitchen like a cat mop.

Or is it because I just have fewer spoons?

Kat, I've thought about this a bit because I'm not engaging in internet battle anymore. For me, I think it's a combination of things: having fewer spoons, letting go of the need to make someone admit that I'm right, asking myself if this really is the hill on which I choose to die and deciding it isn't. That my time is limited and I want to spend it on things that I enjoy, and realizing that I don't find joy in anger.

There's also a bit from Craig Ferguson's latest stand up special: "Ask yourself the three things you must always ask yourself before you say anything. 1) Does this need to be said? 2) Does this need to be said by me? 3) “Does this need to be said by me now?"

I am with you on the budget, msbelle. It is getting to where I hate the whole capitalist system. If only I had something better to put in its place, but I don't have to time to think about that sufficiently.

I just dusted under (excavated?) the refrigerator in the hope that this would make the refrigerator stop freezing my vegetables in the vegetable drawer. Frozen vegetables in the freezer are okay, but frozen lettuce and cucumbers make me sad.

Can't you just turn the cold down? There's that knob inside the fridge and everything.