I cannot abide "failing" in front of other people

Like appearing to not know precisely where you're going when driving around town. I keep thinking people are going "That idiot is lost"--because I've certainly done that to other people.

I'm trying to force myself to think about the end goal, not the process, so as not to overthink how the process looks to the absolutely no one around me who cares.

Hi all! Amyth, I will definitely let you know when (or if, the Belgian postal service being so reliable) your postcard arrives. She got the first of the masses of promised mail today and she was so very excited!

I had some friends over today for lunch and cards/dice. It was a good way to perk up another grey, dreary day.

My flossing streak is still going strong, though, so I'm succeeding at something (even if I'm failing at reading the minds of the people who pay me to work). Yay teeth!

Low motivation morning.

I didn't get much sleep last night, so I'm gronky, and all I want to do is avoid responsibility and job search. But I'm only working three days this week, so I'm forcing myself to get things done. I'm flying to Richmond on Thursday for a long weekend.

I decided to call email in sick to work today. It's a good think I glanced at it before I hit send. Even though the subject line was "sick day" I managed to have "suck day" in the text of the email.

In random news of the day, it seems WWE fans are complaining about the writing. Huh.

Yay streak!

I'm starting to think I may actually be sick and not just have a case of the Mondays, as it were. Hm.

I had a manager who, I'm pretty sure, set me up to fail a lot. She did this to a number of people (I think she wanted to be seen as "saving" the department by rescuing it from our "mistakes"), and got two of my coworkers fired in the process. She was encouraged to move on years before my layoff, but it sure did a number on my self confidence. In spite of getting paid to edit and write for years, I'm having trouble applying to positions where that's a major part of the job because, what if she's right? What if I'm just to stupid to even recognize the way my writing fails? And then I slap myself upside the head and apply anyway.

Anyway, I'm currently watching Finding Bigfoot. This episode is especially fun because they're teaming up with ghost hunters, leading to such gems as, "I can't say for sure if that was a ghost, so I'm going to focus on something I know exists--Bigfoot!"

In random news of the day, it seems WWE fans are complaining about the writing.

I would like more details of this, please.

That what I got from my brief exploration of the CancelWWENetwork hashtag on Twitter. [link]

I am always boggled by people who get their jollies from having endeavors they're involved with struggle and fail.