Thanks, -t. I'm trying to remember that.

I had a meeting with my manager this morning that completely demoralized me. In my last performance review, which was PRETTY RECENT, I got a good score and Exceeds. In my role, I'm a special snowflake and the only round peg on a team of square pegs, so it's really hard to compare me to my peers. I'm going to be lucky if I squeak by with a "meets expectations" because my manager's manager doesn't "get" what I do. Now I have to jump through all the hoops to justify my existence when I don't even want to be here. Thanks, reorg. Thanks a bunch.

I need out of this org so much, but I'm not sure who would even offer me an internal role without an MBA or a Computer Science degree at this point.

I need to start dedicating a lot of time to finding a new job, I guess. And networking.

Oh, no, shrift. I hoped the good review would mean better work environment in general for you.

For me, it's the first time thinking about doing it on my own. And if that's something I actually might want. Terrifying is an understatement.

Though I got to this point by another path, you have stated completely where I am in my world. The future is bleak from some angles and exciting from others. And completely disorienting.

The only other one of this type closer to us also does not offer beginner classes (all adults just in the same class) and their classes start later at night which is worse.

I think that I will continue with them since I have figured out he Dunkin expenses. Man that is just wasteful stupidness on my part.

And completely disorienting

This.

I had a meeting with my manager this morning that completely demoralized me. In my last performance review, which was PRETTY RECENT, I got a good score and Exceeds. In my role, I'm a special snowflake and the only round peg on a team of square pegs, so it's really hard to compare me to my peers. I'm going to be lucky if I squeak by with a "meets expectations" because my manager's manager doesn't "get" what I do. Now I have to jump through all the hoops to justify my existence when I don't even want to be here. Thanks, reorg. Thanks a bunch.

OK, so I could have written the EXACT SAME THING a little less than a year ago. Also after a reorg.

You need to get out.

Ugh shrift that is of the suck.

((((Amy))))

I will always remember your legal name, because it weirds me out. It sounds like a character name.

Well, if I ever write a novel, I guess I won't need a nom de plume.

You need to get out.

I am nodding at you unhappily. I need to find a new internal role ASAP, and if that doesn't happen, then I will need to take a sabbatical or leave the company before they decide to get rid of me for being a low performer.

FWIW, I have seen couples who separate come back together with better harmony than they had before, so. But some time apart, where you're all safe, is good.

I had a good morning of Ubering. Just getting out and making a mild amount of money has improved my overall long-term mood immensely.