I'm sorry, lisah

and new things might be good, if wrong right now

I think I am coming down with a cold. That's a bit of a relief - although summer colds are miserable, I'm pleased that my recent total lack of getting things done can maybe be put down to sickness and not just me being a lazy git.

So I hate needles. Correction: I get severe anxiety attacks in their presence. Thank you, awful childhood dentist. It's so bad, I was begging the docs to not give me any more shots before the emergency c-section.

Thus it stands to reason that I'm now looking at a lifetime of blood draws, every three to six months. I will get over the anxiety. I did last time, I can do it again. I know many others do this. I know so many of us have worse pain and more surgeries and this feels small. I know I can do it. But I am filled with so much do not want today. If you have don't-be-a-wuss~ma, or let-them-find-the-vein-on-the-first-try~ma, or good-results~ma to spare, I would appreciate it.

Sarameg, augh. Revolution.

OMG, I was just about to whine about my lack of ability to buckle down and get shit done, when I saw my horoscope:

All you need to do is focus today -- if you've got that, you can take care of almost anything. See if you can push yourself to stick to the plan no matter what. It can work out!

Crap.

I was so excited about my first work from home day on the new job. Don't have to get up early! Don't have to put on fancy clothes! Don't have to deal with people!

When I grabbed my work laptop, I neglected to also grab a power cord. So I will be dropping by work later today anyway.

The stars are against you, Jesse! Or you are against them, I'm not sure.

Good luck, Sox. I hope you can find a way to ease/cope with the anxiety. Would a valium or some such before the blood draw mess things up medically?

STICK TO THE PLAN, SELF!

I'm not posting this on FB because I'm friends with a lot of Tim's family on there, PLUS this really isn't a complaint about his family, but I wouldn't want them to take it that way.

It's been almost exactly a year since I've worked in an office with other people. Meaning, it's been a year since I've been more isolated than usual on a daily basis, what with working from home by myself.

So being in a (large) house with 7 other people (and 9 more next door who belong to us) started to get on my introverted nerves after 1 day. That's NEVER happened before when we've gone to the beach. Yikes.

It's really not them -- no one is being annoying (other than Tim's dad endlessly grumbling and complaining about EVERYTHING, Jesus Christ, but he does that anyway, so I'm used to it) or weird or intrusive. It's just having people around me all the time is a HUGE change and I need way more alone time than I have in years past, and I don't want them to think I'm shunning them, because I'm not. Except I guess technically I am, but not as a judgment!

Sheesh.

I know how that is, Tep, and how hard it is to explain to people who don't feel that way. Good luck finding some Tep time without hurting feelings!

Don't get me wrong; they all brought books, so there is plenty of quiet time, but I still need to have my quiet time be alone time. I think everyone is cool with it, but I just don't want to come across like they're annoying me.