Typo, I read your white font and I agree. I keep thinking that I want ...I want justice for ita. It keeps popping up, I want justice maybe if we can effect change it will feel something like justice.

God dammit, Strix. I am so, so sorry.

We share your sorrow, Strix.

Did he finish the sentence? That he'll start doing blood tests on you...to make sure you have that amount of drug in your bloodstream, because if you don't, then you're selling it instead of taking it.

He pretty much said that he trusts me, but that the medical practice (he's part of a big network of medical stuff) pretty much requires it at a certain point. I'm not sure what that point is, but I haven't gotten there yet.

Congrats, katefate!

I'm sorry, Strix.

Did he finish the sentence? That he'll start doing blood tests on you...to make sure you have that amount of drug in your bloodstream, because if you don't, then you're selling it instead of taking it.

He pretty much said that he trusts me, but that the medical practice (he's part of a big network of medical stuff) pretty much requires it at a certain point.

I should have clarified; I don't doubt that he trusts you, but yeah, once patients start increasing their dose, then doctors (or their uber-network) start suspecting drug diversion, rather than considering that patients who take opiates develop a fucking tolerance to it. It's like actual medical knowledge about the reality of how drugs work isn't even important.

I ought to ask my dad if he has to get tested. I don't think he's ever mentioned it, and he has a really high dose of oxycodone. Maybe his doctor thinks a 73-year-old man isn't going to sell it. And he never needs to refill early, so that might be a factor.

Oh, no, Strix, I'm so sorry. Condolences to your family.

What the fuck is up with this week.

I skipped to the end of Natter, but thank you, thank you all so much. I gave D a Xanax and some soup, and we're waiting for his mom to call back.

Well, he's napping and I'm planning ; should have given that lightweight a half. But it's probably for the best he's sleeping instead of crying or fretting while we wait for paula to call.

I am overwhelmed. Thank god a crisis brings out the best in me.

I'm really sorry, Strix.

Re drug testing, I'm afraid it's worse than that: when they test you they are also checking to see that your opiate levels aren't *higher* than they should be. I.e. "If we've decided you're in so much pain that you need this high dose, we need to make sure that you aren't getting pain relief somewhere else you filthy addict!"

Oh, Strix, my condolences.