Doesn't matter how we met. What matters is how much love and caring there is between us.

The cats were remarkably understanding this morning that it took forty minutes to work up the ambition to stand up so I could feed them.

Jesus -- I was just on Facebook looking at friend suggestions, and one of them was a family friend who died a couple of years ago. I was just thinking about her funeral, and how my first reaction to seeing her son (possibly my first friend) was "It's so good to see you!" But, you know, not under these circumstances. And how it feels like that here right now.

I got to the office, on time even, and realized I didn't have my purse, so I came home to get it and decided on that drive that I will work from home today.

Good call, -t.

Yeah, Connie, it feels like the poles have shifted. Like all my reference points are gone.

The SO will be gone all day today (he offered to stay but I declined) so Ima need you guys today.

I did not sleep great. My stupid brain decided it would be funny to have stupid dreams. Not anxiety dreams, not emotional dreams. Sit com stupid situation dreams that make no sense. Then there was the dehydration. I woke twice and downed entire glasses of water.

We did make it to karate last night and I punch and kicked, but just the air. A bag would have been much more fulfilling. I may make a krav class Friday. In the coming weeks I will be doing karate at least twice a week and krav at least once. My anger has to go somewhere, I might as well get strong.

Everything feels like it has a jagged edge to it today. There are angles where there should be curves.

I didn't sleep well either. I kept feeling the need to check in here every time I woke up.

Stuck at home due to ice this morning - buses not running and I hate driving on icy roads. But I've got to get to campus this afternoon, because I'm interviewing for a PhD program at 4. I was up until 1. I just couldn't go to bed until I was so tired my body would fall asleep without any coaxing. I was awake at 6, and again at 7:30, and then for real at 8:30.

I guess it's a good thing that the world literally keeps turning, but it does seem like normal life activity should take a break for a while. At the same time, I suppose it's useful to have things that need to get done.

I know I was super grateful to have a bunch of recordkeeping work yesterday that kept my mind occupied with repetitive tasks without requiring me to speak to anyone in person.

I just didn't do any work yesterday, but I need to get some shit done today for sure.