Hi, all.

I'm skipping to the end of the thread (but will go back and read every damn word of it. Your posts mean so much) to let you know that I'm awake because it's daytime in Israel, and if anyone wants to talk by email or here or by phone then I am here and please, please, please, reach out. I love you and I don't want you to be alone in this.

Profile addy is good.

I'm awake again at the same time as yesterday when I read the news and I feel the need to mark it in some way.

{{Sophia}}

Just checking in to say that I'm so, so sorry to hear about ita. I barely knew her, but, from the Firefly moon to Allyson's book, her light shone out a very long way.

I'm so overwhelmed by the outpouring of love for her. If a life is measured in love, ita's was clearly a full and beautiful one.

Hi, Seska.

Post-catching-up:

Maria, Aims, Joe. I am so sorry.

she felt like the board's sustaining spirit.

Yes, that's how Nilly defined her in text messages yesterday as well. Also, thank you for the funny ita lines post.

{{Buffistas}}

Good morning, world...you motherless bastard.

Good morning, Buffistas! I assume you bastards all have mothers.

Hi, MM. Nice to see your electrons again.

And good to see your, Shir.

I'm embracing my sick leave balance because apparently I didn't sleep much (I only glean this from the number of packing dreams I can recall and the fact that the last time my eyes were this puffy, I had pinkeye. And I don't remember crying enough yesterday to explain this) and discovering I was out of tp in the bathroom provoked so much that I kinda think I'm short on cope. And that's not someone who should be deleting 10k records of data today.

That shit gives me chills when I'm 100%.

Sounds like the right call, sarameg. My phone says I slept, not a lot but more than I would have guessed, so I think I will try going into the office. My coworkers are good people who will understand if I'm a bubble off.