I just was so wishing this day wouldn't come.
I'm so sorry it did.
On my seventh birthday, I wanted a toy fire truck, and I didn't get it, and you were real nice about it, and then the house next door burnt down, and then real firetrucks came, and for years I thought you set the fire for me. And if you did, you can tell me!
Xander ,'Same Time, Same Place'
Natter 73: Chuck Norris only wishes he could Natter
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Cass - Jan 13, 2015 3:54:50 pm PST #14810 of 30000
Bob's learned to live with tragedy, but he knows that this tragedy is one that won't ever leave him or get better.
Laura - Jan 13, 2015 3:55:05 pm PST #14811 of 30000
Our wings are not tired.
{{Burrell}} {{Buffistas}}
I have been refreshing all day and I am just numb.
Sue - Jan 13, 2015 3:55:42 pm PST #14812 of 30000
hip deep in pie
I emailed Dani in Winnipeg and I already told the Atlantic Canadian contingent this AM.
brenda m - Jan 13, 2015 3:56:02 pm PST #14813 of 30000
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there
have been hitting my backlog of Good Stuff Happened Today pretty hard. Which also sometimes makes me cry a lot, but, you know.
In the middle of everything today, and the handful of jarring non-ita posts, this popped up from one of the rescue orgs I work with [link]
It has nothing to do with anything except my first smile all day, and the fact that it is possible to come back from godawful pain.
It made me feel good. There was never anything I could do to ease ita's pain. But this guy we could help.
Anne W. - Jan 13, 2015 4:04:30 pm PST #14814 of 30000
The lost sheep grow teeth, forsake their lambs, and lie with the lions.
{{{Burrell}}}
Maria - Jan 13, 2015 4:09:05 pm PST #14815 of 30000
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
I had to go out and be normal for a meeting late this afternoon. It was weird. I just wanted to be home with my laptop and all of you.
Much love to you Burrell.
Burrell - Jan 13, 2015 4:11:14 pm PST #14816 of 30000
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
Aw thanks. There is wine. And DH is getting take out so I can be as weepy as I want to be.
Pete, Husband Of Reason - Jan 13, 2015 4:11:49 pm PST #14817 of 30000
Not got a lot to say...
I had to take this section of posts in small small chunks, so I only just got to here.
I nearly wrote "got to the end" and couldn't phrase it like that, just couldn't.
So strange to see all your names again. So strange to return to the house that ita built and know a cornerstone is gone.
I'm going to start on the ita thread now. And then I'm doing a lot of thinky thoughts.
Nora Deirdre - Jan 13, 2015 4:14:40 pm PST #14818 of 30000
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
smonster is here and we are watching Community.
sarameg - Jan 13, 2015 4:16:47 pm PST #14819 of 30000
Allyson, Burrell, Kat, Kristen, Lori, and Paula, I'm so sorry you had to do this last thing for ita. And I'm glad you could.
Nilly, thank you for thinking of me. I knew. I couldn't bring myself here. I needed to be alone with it for awhile. Maybe still do. I worked and mostly held it together through interminable webex meetings. If there's one thing that helps less, it is that.
Tonight I met with neighbor whose cats I will be fostering so she can check herself into residential psych, for depression. I offered to do this back before the holidays, so it isn't as if it just came up. It's going to be a pain in the ass, her kitties are special needs and completely unrelated to the depression, she's one of those sooper kooky poison in everything types, so I have to endure that in addition to instructions.Neighbor Woo Woo.And it's probably going to unsettle the household, but as long as I manage not to kill her damned cats, it's fleeting. And she's in need and her issues drive away a lot of other forms of help.
And there's a weird symmetry that's inexact but pulls from so many threads of the narratives born here.