The grumpy cat article has been modified to say the amount is false.

I sympathise with the aching buffistas. My job rides on a drop of pee and how they react to medical documentation. I hear today, and I can't calm down.

And I need a dilaudid day tomorrow whether I start work Thursday or not.

I'm a broke bundle of anxiety.

Ornerous Task 1 - complete. Contacted the photographer and CJ's senior pictures are FINALLY available to be picked up. It has been months. Of course, I don't have frames for them yet - might pick them up and stash them in my room until I have frames.

Ornerous Task 2 - Need to call the doctor's office to schedule an appointment.

Ornerous Task 3 - I have a meeting of the parent support unit for CJ's search and rescue team. After all the work on the auction, I'm still kinda burnt out. But I'm a co-chair and missed last month's meeting, so I need to be there and get with the planning for next week's family holiday party. Don't wanna.

Ok, phone call time. Why does that kick off my anxiety.

I hope they are reasonable, ita. Medical needs are medical needs.

I think I need a second cup of coffee. I have gotten myself into one of those cycles where I need coffee to get through the morning because I had trouble getting to sleep the night before, probably because of having too much coffee the previous morning. And I was doing so well cutting back for a while there. A goal better suited to after solstice, I suppose.

Onerous 2 - done-ish. First available appt is on the 19th. The appointment gal sent a message to my doc about getting me in earlier and/or getting labs drawn soon. I hate feeling like this. I don't want to leave the house, I just want to curl up in a ball.

-t, I can get through the whole summer on one cup of coffee a day. But that's about it. Once teaching starts, I needs my coffee like whoa.

flea - if you are around, look for an email from my work account with Julie's info.

That makes sense, Burrell. It was supposedly our peak season when I started cutting back, but things have not started slowing down and I am feeling like I am needing more. But then not falling asleep at night even though I am all tuckered out, or I wouldn't mind drinking more coffee.

Good job onerousing, Suzi! Maybe a little curling up in a ball would be okay? You know best, I'm sure.

So what's a good way to word an email to a potential employer who I'm pretty sure isn't going to offer me the job? (They said they were putting together an offer, then we had a couple of calls, then total radio silence for the past three weeks.) So far I have:

Dear [people]

I hope you all had a pleasant Thanksgiving holiday! I am writing just to touch base and check to make sure you weren't waiting on any more information from me regarding the open position at [company]. [something about how I'm still really excited about the possibility of working at such a great company and hope to hear from them soon]

Thanks, -t. I'm trying to plow on work so I can drive to the photography place before my karate lesson, get home shower/change, and go to my meeting tonight. I kinda want to fink out on karate, but I'll be in SLC next week. I don't HAVE to pick up the pictures today, but they are only open til 4 each day and I'm psyched to see them today.

Sorry for all the fuss. When the kids are home or when I'm out and about, I try to keep the "it's all good" mask on. Here, I know y'all understand. Or I hope you do.

I hope you make it to karate, that always seems to make you feel better.

What you have sounds pretty good to me, Jess. I am not a good resource for that stuff, I'm afraid.

Oh, hey, in all my complaining about drinking too much coffee I managed to get myself on to tea time without having that second cup after all. Not bad, grousing brain. Pretty sure you still shouldn't be in charge, though.