I wish I knew, Lee.

I also wish I could say I was surprised by the verdict, but I'm really, really not.

I also wish I could say I was surprised by the verdict, but I'm really, really not.

I expected no indictment, and yet I'm surprised at how sick I feel that what I expected to happen did actually happen.

What Teppy said.

I am both unsurprised and depressed.

Having just watched the president's press conference, I kind of want to see Luther now.

t Key & Peele reference

I kind of want to see Luther now.

That made me do my loud donkey laugh. Then I had to explain it to Tim. Now we might watch some Key & Peele.

I didn't expect an indictment either. I finally changed the channel in the breakroom at work when it became clear they weren't goign to make an announcement for a long time.

I also got in a disagreement with two co workers. One has family in the St Louis area and she kept saying "there are areas of St Louis you just don't go to. You don't know what it's like there." and when I tried to point out that there were peaceful protests that were met with force and that Fergeson citiens tried to protect business from looting she again claimed her family that lives in St Louis had said that's not true. Even though they don't go in that area beause it's not safe.

Another coworker spat out "He wasn't some innocent - he defied the police." He didn't get out of the street and he deserved to be executed for that? "Everyone is trying to make him seem good, he wasn't. You get what you deserve."

I stopped talking. I don't want to deal with it.

Both of them tried to pull the "you don't understand what it's really like" thing on me, which I got growing up when my relatives tried to justify their racism, which really pushed my buttons.

I had a little hope. I thought the evidence was so clear. I guess I'm not quite cynical enough yet. I'm angry and sad and I feel helpless to change anything. Oh, hey, I'll sign all the petitions! Yeah, that'll work. Even if I were physically able to stand out there with the protesters, what good would it do? I just listened to Obama's speech and it sounds like even he doesn't quite get what just happened here. He's focusing on keeping the protests peaceful. I want to grab the world and shake it until the racism falls out. It feels hopeless.

she again claimed her family that lives in St Louis had said that's not true. Even though they don't go in that area beause it's not safe.

Well, I live in St. Louis, and I say they're full of shit. Yes, there are neighborhoods where it's not always safe, but the local news was full of stories about people protecting property.

I'm'a hide out here. I just blew up a longstanding twitter friendship telling a dude I like most of the time that it's not about whether he's "supposed" to feel guilty "about something", and I'm THIS CLOSE to blowing up about 20 facebook friendships by walking in swinging to a discussion of how if they didn't indict there really must not have been any evidence.