Having just watched the president's press conference, I kind of want to see Luther now.

t Key & Peele reference

I kind of want to see Luther now.

That made me do my loud donkey laugh. Then I had to explain it to Tim. Now we might watch some Key & Peele.

I didn't expect an indictment either. I finally changed the channel in the breakroom at work when it became clear they weren't goign to make an announcement for a long time.

I also got in a disagreement with two co workers. One has family in the St Louis area and she kept saying "there are areas of St Louis you just don't go to. You don't know what it's like there." and when I tried to point out that there were peaceful protests that were met with force and that Fergeson citiens tried to protect business from looting she again claimed her family that lives in St Louis had said that's not true. Even though they don't go in that area beause it's not safe.

Another coworker spat out "He wasn't some innocent - he defied the police." He didn't get out of the street and he deserved to be executed for that? "Everyone is trying to make him seem good, he wasn't. You get what you deserve."

I stopped talking. I don't want to deal with it.

Both of them tried to pull the "you don't understand what it's really like" thing on me, which I got growing up when my relatives tried to justify their racism, which really pushed my buttons.

I had a little hope. I thought the evidence was so clear. I guess I'm not quite cynical enough yet. I'm angry and sad and I feel helpless to change anything. Oh, hey, I'll sign all the petitions! Yeah, that'll work. Even if I were physically able to stand out there with the protesters, what good would it do? I just listened to Obama's speech and it sounds like even he doesn't quite get what just happened here. He's focusing on keeping the protests peaceful. I want to grab the world and shake it until the racism falls out. It feels hopeless.

she again claimed her family that lives in St Louis had said that's not true. Even though they don't go in that area beause it's not safe.

Well, I live in St. Louis, and I say they're full of shit. Yes, there are neighborhoods where it's not always safe, but the local news was full of stories about people protecting property.

I'm'a hide out here. I just blew up a longstanding twitter friendship telling a dude I like most of the time that it's not about whether he's "supposed" to feel guilty "about something", and I'm THIS CLOSE to blowing up about 20 facebook friendships by walking in swinging to a discussion of how if they didn't indict there really must not have been any evidence.

I know she's full of shit. But I guess it's easier for her to just believe what she does. I don't know why. Like the other co worker who had such venom in her voice when she said "He's not the innocent people make him out to be." and "he defied the police".

I'm resolved not to talk about this at work. I'll talk about the upcoming holiday stuff, I'll talk about how 2 employees everyone was excited to hear were leaving aren't and how that sucks (seriously I don't get why they were allowed to stay). But I won't talk aobut this because I can't be calm.

It pisses me off that innocent people are dying at the hands of police over and over and over again all across the United States and it keeps being treated like it's rare or a one time thing. And then there's all the victim blaming.

I'm so glad my Facebook list is generally an echo chamber, because that's all I can handle right now. Any other nonsense I'm either going to hide the posts or unfriend.

My sister recommended Key & Peele without context. C'est quoi ca?

I am ignoring the verdict.

NO ONE IS GOING TO HIRE ME THIS WEEK. I almost drove to Torrance for a 4pm interview today. Shit, I'd have to move...they were going to make the call this week.

And tomorrow I nag the other recruiter about the nearby job.

I'm so angry about the decision--it should have gone to trial, even if he was eventually going to be acquitted, but more violence is not the answer. The BF is listening to the scanner, and the crowd is firing shots at the fire station and trying to tip over an ambulance with a crew inside working on a cardiac arrest patient. I don't get it. How does this help?