These are incompatible realities.

I know that I'm upset about my job situation and how ill-defined my current role has been for over a year, but right now I'm feeling a towering rage anytime people ask me to do anything. Or assume it's something I should do when they easily could do it themselves.

I've already meditated this morning and I still want to invite everyone to suck it. I guess my next step is to resort to bribing myself for every task I complete today.

When I was trapped in a job I hated but knew was temporary and couldn't quit without serious ugliness, I bribed myself with York peppermint patties. By the end I was going through one of those big bags a week.

I know that I'm upset about my job situation and how ill-defined my current role has been for over a year, but right now I'm feeling a towering rage anytime people ask me to do anything. Or assume it's something I should do when they easily could do it themselves.

Oh god I am so right there with you.

I will say that getting serious about a job search (sending out resumes, actual interview) has improved my mood dramatically. I still internally scream "FUCK YOU" at my email at least seventeen times a day, but knowing that I've made the decision to MOVE ON has given me freedom to just not give any fucks at all.

Jealous. Though I am taking the full week at Thanksgiving.

Well, it is coerced and making my work life hell and making me drop out of a couple projects until Jan that also means implementation is delayed (and waiting to burn the vacation until now was delayed for implementations that have been sliding all over the schedule since May and basically FUCK YOU CSC.)

And now I have 2 hours of meetings in which I get nothing done.

I hope the raise is for realm, if mysterious, brenda!

I's dress like it was a site day for the initial meet up, meara. I feel like being a little too dressed up for a business thing is a better mistake than too casual.

knowing that I've made the decision to MOVE ON has given me freedom to just not give any fucks at all.

I hear that. Unfortunately, since I want to make an internal move, I really can't pull the "look at all the fucks I don't give" move until I find a new role and get an offer.

Ugh, being at the end of your rope at a job is the worst. When at all possible, I find saying "fuck you" out loud at your email helps?

I hope that is a real raise, brenda! Could it be connected to any deduction that's stopped happening toward the end of the year?

What do I wear?? I mean, normally when I'm at sites I wear nice end of business casual, dresses or slacks and a blouse and cardigan. But this is a work from home day. I'd feel a bit weird getting dressed up (and this IS Seattle which is super chill), but I think jeans might be too casual.

Yeah, I'd go nicer than jeans, but not super dressy, just to be safe.

Did my work, had lunch at this place near my office that only sells chicken fingers (and turns out to be delicious, obviously), went for a walk, came home, raked leaves, and now I am free to watch tv. Good one!

Oh, brenda, maybe you hit a cap on some deduction? 401k or social security or something

There's a guy here who has a Keurig that he takes to the break room to use, then takes it back to his desk to protect it. I need to work out a visitation deal or something. Why are the silly things $100? Yes, it's laziness, but I don't drink enough coffee or tea do it the non-lazy way. Plus it would probably taste better than whatever jar of coffee grounds I'd be keeping in my desk drawer.