I would dress like a usual site day, meara.

Other Cat normally sleeps on a chair in the living room during the day and with his human at night. He sneaks into my room sometimes in the evening and I'll find him there. Shadow sometimes comes to get me, obviously upset by something, and he'll lead me into the bedroom, where Other Cat is napped out. Other Cat will also often be napping on my desk chair.

When Other Cat is feeling snuggly and his human's gone, he'll often come looking for me, because he knows he can guilt me into picking him up for snuggles. Since Hubby's been gone, Shadow has kept closer to me, so that avenue of snuggling is thwarted. For quite a while it's seemed like Other Cat is more than happy to co-opt me as his human since the housemate isn't home at the times Other Cat wants snuggles. It's a combination of the loss of a source of snuggles (Hubby), cat politics, and Shadow not being able to get to his usual world outside. Shadow's lost his primary ally, and he's not happy about it.

These are incompatible realities.

I know that I'm upset about my job situation and how ill-defined my current role has been for over a year, but right now I'm feeling a towering rage anytime people ask me to do anything. Or assume it's something I should do when they easily could do it themselves.

I've already meditated this morning and I still want to invite everyone to suck it. I guess my next step is to resort to bribing myself for every task I complete today.

When I was trapped in a job I hated but knew was temporary and couldn't quit without serious ugliness, I bribed myself with York peppermint patties. By the end I was going through one of those big bags a week.

I know that I'm upset about my job situation and how ill-defined my current role has been for over a year, but right now I'm feeling a towering rage anytime people ask me to do anything. Or assume it's something I should do when they easily could do it themselves.

Oh god I am so right there with you.

I will say that getting serious about a job search (sending out resumes, actual interview) has improved my mood dramatically. I still internally scream "FUCK YOU" at my email at least seventeen times a day, but knowing that I've made the decision to MOVE ON has given me freedom to just not give any fucks at all.

Jealous. Though I am taking the full week at Thanksgiving.

Well, it is coerced and making my work life hell and making me drop out of a couple projects until Jan that also means implementation is delayed (and waiting to burn the vacation until now was delayed for implementations that have been sliding all over the schedule since May and basically FUCK YOU CSC.)

And now I have 2 hours of meetings in which I get nothing done.

I hope the raise is for realm, if mysterious, brenda!

I's dress like it was a site day for the initial meet up, meara. I feel like being a little too dressed up for a business thing is a better mistake than too casual.

knowing that I've made the decision to MOVE ON has given me freedom to just not give any fucks at all.

I hear that. Unfortunately, since I want to make an internal move, I really can't pull the "look at all the fucks I don't give" move until I find a new role and get an offer.

Ugh, being at the end of your rope at a job is the worst. When at all possible, I find saying "fuck you" out loud at your email helps?

I hope that is a real raise, brenda! Could it be connected to any deduction that's stopped happening toward the end of the year?

What do I wear?? I mean, normally when I'm at sites I wear nice end of business casual, dresses or slacks and a blouse and cardigan. But this is a work from home day. I'd feel a bit weird getting dressed up (and this IS Seattle which is super chill), but I think jeans might be too casual.

Yeah, I'd go nicer than jeans, but not super dressy, just to be safe.

Did my work, had lunch at this place near my office that only sells chicken fingers (and turns out to be delicious, obviously), went for a walk, came home, raked leaves, and now I am free to watch tv. Good one!