I just found out (right before I have to go to sleep) that a former student who has been missing since February actually did most likely commit suicide, and her body was found today in the Hudson River. I am just sick. I really knew in my heart that was what had happened, but all the students seemed so hopeful, and were posting messages to her as soon as last week. Also, I am overreacting to my boss posting "please do look at our Facebook page and join the XXXX Group" in his post about her, although I think he probably just meant it so they could see the video tribute to her. But I also can't get over that he told her he could not "in good conscience" give her a recommendation as a stage manager, even though I thought she was very good, although I told her to always call/give me for a recommendation, she never did. And one of her reasons given was that she could not find work in the arts. She was an actress too, so I am sure that was not even a contributing factor, but I was mad abou it before this even happened.

oh Sophia, that's terrible.

Oh, Sophia, I'm so sorry.

Oh Sophia, how sad.

I'm glad you are feeling better, Consuela. Hope you figure out the logistics for tomorrow.

Harvey just crawled into my arms as I was reading your post, Sophia. He's purring like he is working hard to send you comfort. We're certainly sending the best vibes we can for your strength of heart.

I have to put the Facebook down, because all her young friends grieving so much, and their hopes being shattered is also very painful to me. I also worked with her as an actor several times, and when you do costumes you become very one-sidedly intimate with people-- you get to know them, both their body and their person, and especially their vulnerabilities so well that it is weirdly hard to think of that person only identifiable by tattoos.

Also, thank you Buffistas and Harvey for the vibes.

I'm so sorry Sophia

All my thoughts and prayers to you, and her memory, and her family, Sophia. I saw that Facebook post and I remembered your bad feeling right after she vanished, and my heart just lurched for you and her. Long-distant hugs in abundance.

And so much love to Tom.

Hec just left with amych to drop her off at the airport, but she got tacklehugged by all of us first, as proxy for all the Buffistas too far away to reach.

Oh, Sophia, I'm sorry. That's so sad.