Coworker said she'd help with a tour, took the training class to brush up, spoke up with a lot of good information, so she has some decent knowledge already. Then whined later that the new recruits could handle being thrown into the deep end (which is in direct contradiction to the established training program which is under my direction) and is basically rescinding her offer of assistance. CHED director offered her assistance instead after I noted that the first chica seemed to be bailing. And it's not fair to the second gal. And I get that the first is under a lot of stress with her new responsibilities (this is the same one who keeps screwing me out of classroom space) and is it worse to force the issue with her and make her stick to her original word despite maybe her stressing about her own job that is culminating in a month, or to abuse the kindness of the second gal who's huge event is on a week?
And then the ED made me want to cry at staff meeting when he told me he didn't want me drowning silently and getting overwhelmed and angry and resentful due to my workload while in the same breath pointing out all the nitpicky shit he wanted done yesterday in front of everyone (I immediately started drowning silently and feeling angry and resentful). Maybe it was just the first part that set me off. I seem to have a hide trigger to being told I'm not wanted to stress out. It makes me stress that I'm failing miserably just by allowing myself to stress. Like, I'm being told that I'm not allowed to stress, and if I do, it's my fault.