Death is your art. You make it with your hands day after day. That final gasp, that look of peace. And part of you is desperate to know: What's it like? Where does it lead you? And now you see, that's the secret. Not the punch you didn't throw or the kicks you didn't land. She really wanted it. Every Slayer has a death wish. Even you.

Spike ,'Conversations with Dead People'


Natter 72: We Were Unprepared for This  

Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.


Jesse - Mar 29, 2014 2:05:23 pm PDT #23979 of 30000
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.

Very nice!


msbelle - Mar 29, 2014 2:44:07 pm PDT #23980 of 30000
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb

YAY 5K!

so 11 hour Saturday. ugh. and I really pissed off one contractor. oh well. onward and upward. taking break to get food in me and then I'll start on the schedule for Monday.

Oh before I can work on the schedule I have to get on mac's computer and adjust the parental controls for 2 hours of activity/per day, plus get Khan academy bookmarked on there with his log on, plus get his band music program on there and bookmarked, plus change my master password. Today sucks.


Jesse - Mar 29, 2014 2:45:30 pm PDT #23981 of 30000
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.

That does suck, msbelle.


-t - Mar 29, 2014 2:52:22 pm PDT #23982 of 30000
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration

Good lord, msbelle. That's way too much for one day. Especially a Saturday.


Scrappy - Mar 29, 2014 2:52:59 pm PDT #23983 of 30000
Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.

After trying on fifty gazillion bras, I got two, as they were having a buy one get the second for 60% off. I saw myself naked in the dressing room mirror, had the usual "Oh my god, I am hideous, fat and old and I can't believe Jason would ever want to touch me" reaction, but unlike usually, I managed to cool myself out. So I am kinda proud of myself.

I was so proud of myself I treated myself to a cardigan and a cool shirt with birdies on it.


§ ita § - Mar 29, 2014 2:55:56 pm PDT #23984 of 30000
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.

Ugh, msbelle. Are you off the clock (well, the work bits, anyway) tomorrow?

My nurse came a day early because I was in so much pain. Bless her.

I'm going to use Uber to get home from the procedure Monday (well, and to--I've sworn off taxis for the nonce), and I hope they consider having a car come for me better than a taxi.

Their expectations are unreasonable.

More hellos and and thank yous and glad to be back a little (not glad a little, back a little--I'm only in Natter for the nonce) to the new old people.

Nice numbers, -t!

I've started doing a million things for my insomnia--I got a new mattress, get offline and turn off the screen two hours before I try and sleep, etc. My latest thing is hypnosis/meditation tapes. My current fave is Mindifi, which is pretty effective, although my mind has started wandering like a mo fo.

Anyone else use these? Do you have any recommendations for good programs for calming, getting to sleep, getting back to sleep, etc? And in back of it I have either rain or sea sounds. So far, due to audio considerations so it doesn't overpower the words, I'm using some quieter pitched rain sounds. So my bedroom always sounds like water.


Jesse - Mar 29, 2014 3:02:02 pm PDT #23985 of 30000
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.

Excellent, Scrappy!

I'm pretty sure water sounds would make me have to pee, to the detriment of my sleeping.


Atropa - Mar 29, 2014 3:13:31 pm PDT #23986 of 30000
The artist formerly associated with cupcakes.

get offline and turn off the screen two hours before I try and sleep

I'm trying that, too, and I think it's kinda-sorta working?

The other non-medication thing I've been trying for insomnia is focusing on one image in my brain while I'm trying to fall asleep. It's the image of the swoopy golden bar of light that signifies Will is doing his ~empath~ thing on Hannibal episodes, but it's strangely soothing and relaxing. [link]


Tom Scola - Mar 29, 2014 3:15:47 pm PDT #23987 of 30000
Remember that the frontier of the Rebellion is everywhere. And even the smallest act of insurrection pushes our lines forward.

I heard some good things about magnesium supplements for insomnia, but they haven't really been helping me a whole lot.


Liese S. - Mar 29, 2014 3:18:01 pm PDT #23988 of 30000
"Faded like the lilac, he thought."

I use a disc that I got from a fancy schmancy hotel I was staying at. It has a physical relaxation section then a mental one then just music. It's this guy: [link] but I don't see any links to audio stuff from him.

I really do need to improve my sleep hygiene stuff, because I am terrible about that.