I need to figure out how to start the work week with a better attitude. I'm so anxious and upset about it right now. I need to figure out how to turn my outlook around because there's really nothing much I can do to change the situation. I feel both like I've been betrayed by my work colleagues and like maybe I did a shitty job. So I can't even use righteous anger to fuel searching for another job because, right now, I'm like "who'd want me." feh.

Oh dear, lisah. That's the worst. I have no good advice because usually I can only get to "fuck them anyway," which isn't necessarily the most productive.

Happy birthday, Suzi! I hope you're having a nice day.

Upgrade fee from Verizon and you usually pay tax on the full retail price.

Ah, yes, there it is. Yeah, that makes sense. I'll probably still do it, especially if I can remember WHY I wanted a newer phone (I am sure there was an actual reason. I remember thinking "Oh, yes, for this I will upgrade" about something ).

Oh, no, lisah, that sounds very hard! I find a large dose of fatalism wrt job stuff helps me a lot, but it's probably not for everyone. I hope things get better somehow or other. And even if Monday is going to be tough, today doesn't have to be.

I have no good advice because usually I can only get to "fuck them anyway," which isn't necessarily the most productive.

I need to embrace that sentiment a bit right now. I think it's healthier in this situation.

I've been busying myself with organizational tasks for the Ride for the Feast, the big charity ride I do every year that I'm chairing again this year. That helps somewhat with my feelings of uselessness.

I have dog-walked (and narrowly escaped getting a ticket from the cops staking out the park) and made breakfast.

I need to embrace that sentiment a bit right now. I think it's healthier in this situation.

That I can work with: Those motherfuckers! How dare they! And what else were you supposed to you? You did everything! Fuck em in the ear, is what.

I DID DO EVERYTHING!!!

They are THE WORST!

Thank you!!!

Embrace the Fuck Them! They do not deserve you.

I miss ita too. I check in by text every so often to make sure she is okay.

I also miss ita lots. And remember that last night I had a dream that she came back and was telling us why she'd been gone and it was very very weird. I don't remember what it was in the dream but something akin to "I was being chased by mobsters" or something. Very weird.

(And yes, he does like black turtlenecks specifically because of Steve Jobs.)

Ooh. That IS a horrible legacy, Steve.

So I can't even use righteous anger to fuel searching for another job because, right now, I'm like "who'd want me."

Oh what an awful feeling, lisa! I'm sure it's not true and you ROCK and many people would be lucky to have you. But dang, how discouraging. :(

Those motherfuckers! How dare they! And what else were you supposed to you? You did everything! Fuck em in the ear, is what.

YES! Jesse knows.

I also have the iPhone 4S and am kinda not wanting to upgrade. Partly because then I'd have to buy all new cords with the stupid new charger thing.

I'm having nutella and bananas on toast for breakfast, with coffee. Then I will contemplating shoveling my walk--we had like, 2" of snow in Seattle! It's madness! People had to abandon their cars on their way home. I'm hoping it'll melt soon, because what I really wanted to do was go to Target and the mall, but not if the roads are awful. It's already too late for the "go to an early movie that's cheap" part of the idea.

I have dog-walked (and narrowly escaped getting a ticket from the cops staking out the park)

Why would they ticket you??

Off leash. We came round the corner and she tore off onto the baseball field while the cop was already approaching a friend of mine to give her a ticket. So I just got yelled and snarked at.